frustrated chem major
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ok im a 23 year old college student who has been in school for the past 5 years and just feeling like a complete failure. My cumulative gpa is low and my major gpa is low. Its so depressing i dont know anything that im good at and feel so lost. The advisers at my school aren't helpful at all and i have no one to turn too. I also have dyslexia i try not to use that as a excuse but i know it does effect my learning. FYI i dont read backwards (tired of people automatically assuming that the first time you tell them you have dyslexia) I just have a different way of processing information. Its disappointing because it takes one student 2 hours to study and maybe 4 or more hours for me. Even after all that studying im still doing horrible. Ive had 3 deaths that have happen and i know that has some effect on my depression as well. I noticed how quickly my grades kinda dropped when 2 deaths happenend within the same year.I only have 14 hours after spring semester to finish. I feel like i have wasted my time and my mothers money. I cant get into graduate programs with the gpa that i have and then internships want you to have a 3.0 gpa. Either way im screwed and dont know what to do. Honestly im in still in college because im having to retake so many classes but they still seem hard. I'm not a party animal and im still failing. I knew it would be tough or challenging but i just want to give up. Feeling so overwhelmed with pressure form family and from myself. Im a chemistry major by the way.Compared to most im a very patient person because i know it takes me a little longer to understand somethings. I really do enjoy the subject but i feel like im not really understanding the material in the way that its been presented to me. Ive even tried using other books to help me understand.I try to go to my professors for help but sometimes helping me understand the material gets frustrating for most professors.I don't have very much work experience because my mom believes school is important and you have your whole life to get a job so didn't work, how embarrassing. Sorry if i rambled so much and used the letter I in the beginning of every sentence I just feel so dumb and don"t really see the point anymore in continuing in school. If i was smart i wouldn't mind continuing education. Some people cant finish school because of finances but i just cant pass my classes. Don"t get me wrong i come from a single parent household and the economy is hitting my mom bad so im having to work now in the spring. Well if anyone sees this and have any advice it would help if not thanks for reading this anyway. I just feel so alone and confused.