dont think i can take feeling like this anymore

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my anxiety has gotten to a stage where i cant go anywhere anymore!
today i wanted to buy a phone for my boyfriend and couldnt even go into the shop my panic disorder was so bad!!! i can do nothing-i have no life any more! every morning i wake up is this feeling of dread hits me,i have to run to the bathroom even before i go anywhere! im only 19 years of age and this terrible condition was ruined the last year of my life, i think the reason it might have started was because i was physically abused by my 2 older brothers 2 years ago and my whole family think i deserved it which has stayed with me ever since! -they believe in tough loving which i think is totally wrong! my brothers ended up kicking me in the head while i was on the ground so bad my ears were black and blue( all because i snuck out the window to go to a party).
anyway im just wondering is there people out there who feel the same way as i do? ive tried telling my family about my condition but they dont understand. no one understanRAB how it can take over someones life so much!
 
Gosh Tina, I feel so bad for you. You are way too young to be letting this ruin your life. I am so sorry you have been abused. You are worth way more than that. No one should EVER be abused. I hope you can seek some counseling. When you get these things cleared up you can get on with your life. It is terriable that your family meraber have done this to you. You are loved by God and so many others around you.

I have delt with anxiety for years. I have stayed homes at times because of it too. You can't let it rule you. As one therapist once said. The anxiety attack won't kill you. Ride it out. Just tell yourself,,ya I am going feel anxious, sweaty palms or heart racing...like he said. If you kind of erabrace it then it actually stops. I don't know how to explain it. Also prayer is the nuraber one thing I like to do.

Hang in there sweetie! You be out to buy that phone soon! :angel:
 
There is always hope. I believe God watches over all of us. He gives us strength to begin a new day. Regardless of whether you believe that, I sure do. I have been going through hell with these panic attacks. I still am unhealthily under weight. I am trying to work my way back up now. I am so sorry to hear about the horror you endured through your brothers. Families should help one another and show love, not violence and fear to show they care. Abuse is not caring no matter what anyone says. If you are in school, I would advise you seek out some sort of counsel. Whether its high school or college, there may be someone there to help you. I would also try and get to a doctor and see if they would be able to help you. My prayers are with you and I hope this all gets better. We are all here to listen and understand because we go through the same thing and know that you are NOT alone.
 
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