well at 15 i had a traumatic sexual experience and it took me so long to trust another man again..it took me a little late to explore sexuality if you can call it that...well when i was 19 when i learnt everything and around that time i wanted to try out sex chatting but i couldnt bring myself to do something like that..well then once i was chatting with a guy who did not come across as an utter creep and by time he started saying sexy stuff to me and i thought what the heck and led him on with what little i knew, just to know how it felt like...my sense of integrity was not too loose as to exchange nude pics or perform "activities" or any sort..it was just that once and it did not make me feel 'taken advantage of' or something because i knew exactly what i was comfortable doing and i didnt go any beyond..well this sums up my '"past" before my now fiance..do you think this qualifies as a sexual escapade?...i want to think of myself as pure but the thoughts of my abuse as a teenager somehow attacks this chat incident and makes me feel like deep down im some kind of a w hore on leash