does she just want her cake to just eat it to? Am i on the backburner?

curious fellow

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im 23, shes 18. she just got out of a relationship like 10 months ago..but claims it was on and off.
im a very patient man. Im not pushy and am very respectful. i met her at work and we hit it off. went out on a couple of dates and really clicked. i understand she may need time for healing and i totally respect it. she moved down here in march but is moving back to her hometown where her ex lives but she keeps reassuring me its for school because its cheaper and her parents. she msgs me and tells me i got a special place with her and she see's herself with me but needs to regain her feelings because she wants to give me her all but is still in limbo with the other. we've kissed and i know some think of it as a complicated ordeal and others dont. i believe it complicates things. im really digging this girl alot. my gut tells me to keep chasing by being there for her and supporting her with everything. She wants to keep in touch and said she will be back in a year and a half. im not showing her that i will wait for her. But deep down i want her bad. should i follow my gut? she tells me she wants me but needs time...so is that an indication for a relationship to soon be? or what she thinks i want to hear? all i keep hearing is that i have a special place with her. i gave her a doll and she kept talking about it that she has that doll to keep me so close to her. i asked her what for?..she told me for reasons she cant explain. Then tells me that she doesnt know if i will lose my feelings for her and like someone else. i asked if she was hinting that she would wait for me for a 1 yr and a half and she just smiled. i asked to be brutally honest and no more games. she responded with ill wait as much as i can. Like WTF!.. first you want me then you dont. i told her straight up..that if i really liked someone i wouldnt let them get away, but obviously you dont feel enough of that for me. then she responded saying...its not that, i said then what..and no answer..im so tired of fucking mind games.. i deserve respect and no bullshit but why does my fucking gut tell me keep chasing.. ugh...i cant freaking read her..she is expecting me to keep in touch. what to do?
p.s her ex she talks to everyday but states she wont give a chance to him and this douchebag cheated on her.
will she regret losing me?..or will she just look around for better and if she cant find, im the next choice..because i know for damn sure. IM second to NO ONE!
 
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