When I am interested in a guy I really go after him with everything and then once he is mine and is head over heels in love, I am all of a sudden not interested. I never did this intentionally but I just realized that is how every single one of my relationships have been accept for the first serious one; he just completely left me hanging dry. Could this be a subconscious pattern and does this mean that I am a horrible person? What does this say for my sanity?