jusagurl93x
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...be very appreciated)? I'm really confused, I have no idea what hes thinking or what he wants.
Can I have some advice here?
So a few months ago My guyfriend interduced me to a guy named Colton.
He was cool.. I mean I saw him a few other times after that beacuse we hang out with the same people, and saw eachother and friends get togethers and partys and what not. But anyways, he gave me his number one night at one of the partys and I saved it.. I guess weeks later, before halloween me, and a few of them went to valleyscare.. I had the money at home but not with me. my parents werent home and the door was locked. I almost couldnt go but Colton offered he'd pay it if I paid him back. I was suppose to pay him back that night but something, (I dont remember) happened and I didnt see him at all after we got back. So the next day I called him.. I paid his money back. I thought that would really be all but later he called and asked to hang out.. wow. So I did, I met up with him. Cool at first, just friends I figgured, then we started to hang out more and more often, he even started feeling me up at a time, and somehow.. we kissed.
later while this was still happening him takeing me closer I stopped it.. asked.. if we were dateing? I mean.. I didnt want to do this with a guy unless we were.. you know.
Colton was taken back by the question and said.. well, do you want too? I said I dont know, do you? and so on then decided yeah.. we wanted too. this kept happening, he told me he liked me the minneute he saw me, I had to addmitt I thought the same. 6 days later,On halloween night.. I lost my virginity. To him. My first. even days after that we were a happy couple, we ended up fooling around alot, to the point where.. I probably have done it with him 5 times when we were together. we were together for about 3 weeks.. i know. pretty bad right. but i really liked him, i started to wonder if that was all he wanted me for. One night, after we were dont messing around we got into a fight, I forget about what, we got in little fights from time to time, normal though right? after the fight though I hugged him and whispered I loved him.. he held back a moment and said he wasent ready to say those words yet. I was shocked a bit.. I mean, guys say that all the time. I never really met a guy who takes it serriously. I toke it in the wrong way, leading into another fight.. he said he loved me but he wasent IN love with me YET.. I said so? "I didnt say im in love with you, i said I love you, and you dont HAVE to say it if you dont want, i get it" he agreeed.. I think just to get over the fight. we made up though.. next time I saw him though I could tell it was still on his mind. we both went out to have a smoke and he questioned why I blew up like that.. I didnt say anything.. I mean when a girl tells her boyfriend she loves him and he doesnt say anything back dont you think you'd feel alittle upset about it??.. anyway this lead into ANOTHER fight and he said he didnt know.. He liked me but with school and everything wasent ready to take up responsibility and found it hard to trust me.. he said he found it hard to trust anyone really. I said I understod though it was akward the rest of the night. guess he sort of 'Broke up' with me in a way. he had his friend drive me home early that night.
soo days went by, I didnt call, he didnt call. I even got a new Boyfriend Joe, which only lasted a few days, I broke up with him yesterday when he said he was on his way to pick me up and I found out he never even left home :/ I waited almost all night last night.. I had nothing to do and I was ready to go somewhere so.. I called up Colton. He wasent doing anything, he sounded supprised I called, hell I was fucking supprissed I called. But Ive been thinking about him the past few days and I've missed him. Anyway turned out I went over to his house last night. Sat on his bed.. felt like old times. he smiled. he told me he was glad I called, and missed me too. and he thought about calling me, and how he felt like he messed everything up sense the last time we saw eachother.. I laughed and said it was fine. then on the bed he put his arm around me and one hand on my stomach I didnt stop him.. he whispered he was sorry, I asked him.. "you feel like you messed things up on us being friends or.." "Maybe more" he interupted then kissed me.
we made out a bit, it was the best thing ever. later I laughed and smiled jokeingly, "So, Were back on" I said. he smiled, "yup" he said.. and I said, "You sure your not, not ready for boyfriend responsibility?" I teased, refurring to what he said the night we last saw eachother and he said.. "Um.. I dont know" I went back and im like "What do you mean?"
hes like, "Well I dont know if I want to date anyone exclusivly.. yet, right now"
so I said, "So im not good enough for you?" in a meanish wayy.. he put his head down saying thats not what he meant, which lead to ANOTHER fight... ughh..
durrring it, his mom came home and
Can I have some advice here?
So a few months ago My guyfriend interduced me to a guy named Colton.
He was cool.. I mean I saw him a few other times after that beacuse we hang out with the same people, and saw eachother and friends get togethers and partys and what not. But anyways, he gave me his number one night at one of the partys and I saved it.. I guess weeks later, before halloween me, and a few of them went to valleyscare.. I had the money at home but not with me. my parents werent home and the door was locked. I almost couldnt go but Colton offered he'd pay it if I paid him back. I was suppose to pay him back that night but something, (I dont remember) happened and I didnt see him at all after we got back. So the next day I called him.. I paid his money back. I thought that would really be all but later he called and asked to hang out.. wow. So I did, I met up with him. Cool at first, just friends I figgured, then we started to hang out more and more often, he even started feeling me up at a time, and somehow.. we kissed.
later while this was still happening him takeing me closer I stopped it.. asked.. if we were dateing? I mean.. I didnt want to do this with a guy unless we were.. you know.
Colton was taken back by the question and said.. well, do you want too? I said I dont know, do you? and so on then decided yeah.. we wanted too. this kept happening, he told me he liked me the minneute he saw me, I had to addmitt I thought the same. 6 days later,On halloween night.. I lost my virginity. To him. My first. even days after that we were a happy couple, we ended up fooling around alot, to the point where.. I probably have done it with him 5 times when we were together. we were together for about 3 weeks.. i know. pretty bad right. but i really liked him, i started to wonder if that was all he wanted me for. One night, after we were dont messing around we got into a fight, I forget about what, we got in little fights from time to time, normal though right? after the fight though I hugged him and whispered I loved him.. he held back a moment and said he wasent ready to say those words yet. I was shocked a bit.. I mean, guys say that all the time. I never really met a guy who takes it serriously. I toke it in the wrong way, leading into another fight.. he said he loved me but he wasent IN love with me YET.. I said so? "I didnt say im in love with you, i said I love you, and you dont HAVE to say it if you dont want, i get it" he agreeed.. I think just to get over the fight. we made up though.. next time I saw him though I could tell it was still on his mind. we both went out to have a smoke and he questioned why I blew up like that.. I didnt say anything.. I mean when a girl tells her boyfriend she loves him and he doesnt say anything back dont you think you'd feel alittle upset about it??.. anyway this lead into ANOTHER fight and he said he didnt know.. He liked me but with school and everything wasent ready to take up responsibility and found it hard to trust me.. he said he found it hard to trust anyone really. I said I understod though it was akward the rest of the night. guess he sort of 'Broke up' with me in a way. he had his friend drive me home early that night.
soo days went by, I didnt call, he didnt call. I even got a new Boyfriend Joe, which only lasted a few days, I broke up with him yesterday when he said he was on his way to pick me up and I found out he never even left home :/ I waited almost all night last night.. I had nothing to do and I was ready to go somewhere so.. I called up Colton. He wasent doing anything, he sounded supprised I called, hell I was fucking supprissed I called. But Ive been thinking about him the past few days and I've missed him. Anyway turned out I went over to his house last night. Sat on his bed.. felt like old times. he smiled. he told me he was glad I called, and missed me too. and he thought about calling me, and how he felt like he messed everything up sense the last time we saw eachother.. I laughed and said it was fine. then on the bed he put his arm around me and one hand on my stomach I didnt stop him.. he whispered he was sorry, I asked him.. "you feel like you messed things up on us being friends or.." "Maybe more" he interupted then kissed me.
we made out a bit, it was the best thing ever. later I laughed and smiled jokeingly, "So, Were back on" I said. he smiled, "yup" he said.. and I said, "You sure your not, not ready for boyfriend responsibility?" I teased, refurring to what he said the night we last saw eachother and he said.. "Um.. I dont know" I went back and im like "What do you mean?"
hes like, "Well I dont know if I want to date anyone exclusivly.. yet, right now"
so I said, "So im not good enough for you?" in a meanish wayy.. he put his head down saying thats not what he meant, which lead to ANOTHER fight... ughh..
durrring it, his mom came home and