crookshanks
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I moved to high school from primary school two years ago. At the very start, I was normal. I could talk to people normally, I had some friends, I got brand new, pretty things just for school, and I always did my hair good. But then my best friend, who came from the same primary, moved schools, and after that I moved away from my other friend who I made through my best friend (because she was mean) and I sat with another group. I'm still sitting with the same group today, but I might as well just be a loner, because none of them notice me at all, they all sit in front of me and block me out, and none of them seem to like me much. I still have the same stuff from last year, all damaged and frayed, I don't know how to talk to people anymore, I have no friends and my hair is all messy and I don't bother with it anymore. I've become socially awkward and sort of depressed, and I just don't care about giving impressions like I did when I first came to this school. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. However, this school has also done some good. I've become really smart. I only get A's now, I'm one of the best students, and I received top marks in the school for a national exam. When I first moved, I got C's. Also, I used to be mean (or I didn't really care) about people with no friends. This might be karma. But now I completely understand how it feels and I'm now I'm nice to everyone, friendless or not. I try to be friendly no matter who the person is, because I have no friends at all (at this school). Another thing, I've learnt to be myself. It's like I've found out who I am. Before I liked what was popular and followed trends, but when I became a loner I just didn't care what people thought about me and now I like what I like. I'm different to everyone else, and I'm proud of it.
Next year, I won't be coming back to this school. I'm moving to a school where all my friends go, and I won't be socially awkward anymore. But this school feels kind of important to me and I feel bittersweet about leaving it, even though it contributed to my depression. Do you think it's a good thing or a bad thing that I went to this school in the first place and became a loner?
Next year, I won't be coming back to this school. I'm moving to a school where all my friends go, and I won't be socially awkward anymore. But this school feels kind of important to me and I feel bittersweet about leaving it, even though it contributed to my depression. Do you think it's a good thing or a bad thing that I went to this school in the first place and became a loner?