Loveless...
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Where you are in life may seem at the right distance from everyone and that its going smooth, where in fact you just dont want to mess up what you have, I have been answering questions almost along the line as this but taking your own advice is so worthless I find. So I would like to know what you think on my little story. In November 2010 I met a girl, though she wasn't the greatest she was pretty nice and funny and didn't have any real mean aspects to her. At this time I was friends with a girl I had known in since grade 7, I was in grade 10 at the time and currently am in grade 11, now I liked the girl I knew for awhile, though she didn't have any interest in me all that much. So she basically over time became my best friend that was a girl, which was nice to have. The new girl I met I started dating since I wasn't dating at the time. It was good for about a week then she wanted to break up, I was pretty lost and thought it as being pretty depressing because I must have done something stupid without realizing it and I really did think she was pretty cool. A told some friend we broke up and one of my best friends told her she was some things for breaking up with me, I didn't know it yet. So anyways I went on with the day and then realized I had a text from her and she was in short terms mad because I told my friends to freak on her, well I was pretty lost at first and when I realized what she had probably meant I felt stuck in what I did so I agreed with her over me being some things. I dont really know what happened but we got back together, which as weird as it sounded was better than the first time we started. Though in my mind I didn't know what had happened originally though I didn't care either all that much. A month of two passed and she wanted to break up again, she seemed fine at first but then she talked on the phone with her friend for a bit and wanted it so I assumed it was him. This made me angry, making me feel as if I was worthless, and I asked her why she wanted to, her thing was I need to study and pass this year so I cant date you. I was also in her math class this year on top of that. So a couple days went on and I felt really lousy but couldn't really fix it because I knew why I was and that I couldn't really change that. Eventually I felt pathetic and asked her out again, which made me sink to the bottom of the ocean in fear and stupidity, weirdly enough she said yes. Which in a way made me feel as if I shouldn't have asked, some more time went on, it was around January 10th now and again she wanted to break up, before she told me though she was at my house and went to the bathroom so as a snoop I looked at her phone and saw texts from someone, I assumed it as just a random person, but I read them and they were things around the lines of I'll be out of the hospital soon will you be there for me and things like I like you so when I'm out I hope you give me a chance, I put her phone back and surely enough 10 minutes later she said she had to go, and about 15 minutes after that I'm texted by her saying I want to break up which didn't hurt me as I had read this, though we broke up and I felt angry I saw how pathetic she was also in this for him. Some more time went by and he turned out to be a pervert so she wanted back with me, she said she was done breaking up and that she wanted to be with me, I took her back, something most would see unusual I felt sorry for her and that I should get back at her at the same time. Some time went on and she fell in love with me, we're still at a pretty young age though I feel like I love her back, we're still dating since then and she tells me everyday the only problem is I may love her alot, but I cant seem to think to myself that I'm in love with her, though I had promised that I love her so much I wont break up with her, and I have only broken a single promise in my life and that was of accidents. So before now when you're reading this I still had that friend, my friend said when we got back together the last time that I should stop and move on, though I dont know why but this angered me and I was in a fight with her, I started talking to her about a month ago since some time in February, now the thing is I love my friend and always have, in very deep ways, she probably doesn't feel the same way though even though I felt horrible for hurting her and apologized, I mean I can be blamed it is my fault, so anyways after my long boring story, I come basically to the conclusion and the question. So the past few months with my girlfriend shes been a pretty big snob, she always wants her way and cries is she doesn't get it, I flipped out and told her to grow up, because I was gonna break up with her if she didn't. Well she did grow up, though I feel more happy now over that I still cant stand to love 2 individuals, I need to love one, and its not fair to go half way with some
The end cut off and I did think about an essay format but its not really an essay its on a site with questions and answers. So the end is "And its not fair to go half way with someone so my question is basically what do you think I should, to gain ease in my heart" I hope I get good answers because this is a big part of my life at this moment, thank you.
The end cut off and I did think about an essay format but its not really an essay its on a site with questions and answers. So the end is "And its not fair to go half way with someone so my question is basically what do you think I should, to gain ease in my heart" I hope I get good answers because this is a big part of my life at this moment, thank you.