right, i have no idea what the hell is wrong with me, i dont know whether its normal or anything, but yea... my mate who i've been best friends with for about 6 years suggested afew weeks ago that i could possibly be bipolar, tbh, i have no idea what this means... she said that the things that could possibly mean im bipolar are... (btw, i've been like all these for about 3-4 years now)
-low back pain o.e
-always having a lot to say or stuff on my mind that I try sat all at once and it gets all muddled
-got really angry a few being called stereotypical names for about 2 years and it kinda bugged me to the point i used to break down and cry about it because i didn't want anything to do with it and i wanted to be left to look how i wanted
-i struggle to stay calm because i always feel someone is like, watching me... like PE for example... we were using the trampolines and there are 2 trampolines through a class of about 25, so we go on one at a time, I've already done it for 2 years and felt fine, but this year i was about to go on when I started shaking uncontrollably, cried, but I don't know why, I just know that i felt painfully scared and nervous about it. I felt like an idiot afterwards o.e
-I sleep about 3 hours a night
-I go through stages of dramatically eating a lot, then suddenly for about 2 months i wont be able to eat at all (well not for the whole two months, but I eat about once every few days)
-I often feel confused about well... anything O.O
-if someone says something to me that i find slightly offensive i snap straight away, ending in a huge argument feeling really angry and crying uncontrollably.
-I OFTEN have like, about 4 months at a time feeling alone, lost and really down, I do tend to drink a lot within these months to rid of the pain, I used to self harm or try get myself in danger, usually with the thought of suicide as an escape plan as in thinking of it like "it doesn't matter, if anything goes wrong I'll just do this..." and planning it out :\
-I cant focus on anything deeply, I always seem to get caught up in thinking about something else.
(cant remember if i missed anything if I am honest) but yea... i have no idea what this means particularly, i don't even know for a fact whether it links to bipolar... i'm kinda scared to google it O.O one thing i know for sure, i don't want my parents to be involved in this what so ever and i dont know what to do to get help..... which is why i came here, to yahoo >.< help?
-low back pain o.e
-always having a lot to say or stuff on my mind that I try sat all at once and it gets all muddled
-got really angry a few being called stereotypical names for about 2 years and it kinda bugged me to the point i used to break down and cry about it because i didn't want anything to do with it and i wanted to be left to look how i wanted
-i struggle to stay calm because i always feel someone is like, watching me... like PE for example... we were using the trampolines and there are 2 trampolines through a class of about 25, so we go on one at a time, I've already done it for 2 years and felt fine, but this year i was about to go on when I started shaking uncontrollably, cried, but I don't know why, I just know that i felt painfully scared and nervous about it. I felt like an idiot afterwards o.e
-I sleep about 3 hours a night
-I go through stages of dramatically eating a lot, then suddenly for about 2 months i wont be able to eat at all (well not for the whole two months, but I eat about once every few days)
-I often feel confused about well... anything O.O
-if someone says something to me that i find slightly offensive i snap straight away, ending in a huge argument feeling really angry and crying uncontrollably.
-I OFTEN have like, about 4 months at a time feeling alone, lost and really down, I do tend to drink a lot within these months to rid of the pain, I used to self harm or try get myself in danger, usually with the thought of suicide as an escape plan as in thinking of it like "it doesn't matter, if anything goes wrong I'll just do this..." and planning it out :\
-I cant focus on anything deeply, I always seem to get caught up in thinking about something else.
(cant remember if i missed anything if I am honest) but yea... i have no idea what this means particularly, i don't even know for a fact whether it links to bipolar... i'm kinda scared to google it O.O one thing i know for sure, i don't want my parents to be involved in this what so ever and i dont know what to do to get help..... which is why i came here, to yahoo >.< help?