Today I practically had to force myself to eat, and I HATED every moment of it. I couldn't even eat all of what I was eating, I just felt so sick of the thought of eating. I was disgusted with myself. I honestly felt like throwing it up, that's how sick it makes me feel. I do try not to eat a lot but I also do try to eat.. and when I'm really conscious, eating becomes really hard. Do I have a problem? Of course I probably do, but what's going on? Why can't I just normally eat something and enjoy it instead of just wanting to get rid of all of it and not even look at it. It just makes me feel so sick.
I also feel that when there's food in front of me, I have to eat it.
Either so I don't look weird not eating or because I don't want to just waste it,
because I know I won't want to eat it later... But I never can enjoy it..
I also feel that when there's food in front of me, I have to eat it.
Either so I don't look weird not eating or because I don't want to just waste it,
because I know I won't want to eat it later... But I never can enjoy it..