This is somewhat a long story but ill sum it up:
I met this guy he so happened to have a criminal record in selling drugs but we fell in love... we dated for a while and one day after fighting ad thinking it was over i cheated on him...I know what I had done was entirely wrong and I told him and I apologized. Its something that I do regret to this day. This guy ended up hitting me not all the time but definitly a few times. He also seemed to be angry all the time and It was obvious why...he still was angry with me cheating on him. I was completly understanding of it for awhile... After some time things werent getting any better and I broke it off. Instead of trying to get back together he continued selling, drinking, and doing almost nothing with his life. While we were dating he told me i couldn't be friends with my friends anymore and i agreed to it... but after we broke up he started hanging out with my friends. This was all strange to me and pushed me away.
So the point is ...I tried to get back together with him and work it out but it doesn't seem to work. We argue a lot and I think we both can't get over the past. I told him today that I was completely done and broke it off. I guess Im just scared I wont find true love... what happens if he is my true love? Is it true love? People tell me this is a good decision ... then why am i questioning it?
I met this guy he so happened to have a criminal record in selling drugs but we fell in love... we dated for a while and one day after fighting ad thinking it was over i cheated on him...I know what I had done was entirely wrong and I told him and I apologized. Its something that I do regret to this day. This guy ended up hitting me not all the time but definitly a few times. He also seemed to be angry all the time and It was obvious why...he still was angry with me cheating on him. I was completly understanding of it for awhile... After some time things werent getting any better and I broke it off. Instead of trying to get back together he continued selling, drinking, and doing almost nothing with his life. While we were dating he told me i couldn't be friends with my friends anymore and i agreed to it... but after we broke up he started hanging out with my friends. This was all strange to me and pushed me away.
So the point is ...I tried to get back together with him and work it out but it doesn't seem to work. We argue a lot and I think we both can't get over the past. I told him today that I was completely done and broke it off. I guess Im just scared I wont find true love... what happens if he is my true love? Is it true love? People tell me this is a good decision ... then why am i questioning it?