Desperate- EX/FUTURE DRAMA..HELP?!?!?

Hello all, My names Charlie.
My ex that broke up with me hmm june 9th 2008 and i are still close friends, and she was never in love with me but she's always been my best friend and i've always been in love with her- still am. We broke up bc um lol caught in bed at like 15-16 *not sex* and my mom scares her so she dumped me, We're sorta normalish now but not totally bc well i have to hear and deal with all the guys she's dated after me and well she has a baby by the last 1* he was planned*.
Any how she's gone on this horrible spree of just idk- giving up on decent guys and i've never screwed her over and i miss her, and i love her and i love her son as if he was mine and idk what to do. I'm supposed to join the marines during summer and she says if i ever had a shot with her my joining would delete it bc well she couldn't handle that*which i respect*.

but i don't want to wait on a maybe- though in maybe 3-4 years i know *if she stops stressing it* we could end up back together.

what do i do?

*my most recent ex loves me and supports it and want s to marry me and i love her like a hella lot too- just don't wanna hurt her, and shes kinda mean when we do date so i split but now yeah the other situation..*
 
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