Liam Johnston
New member
So, I have been seeing this therapist for a while for treatment of my Bipolar Type I with severe psychotic tendencies. A while back she asked if I was delusional and I said that I was because I recognized some thought patterns of mine being shared very commonly with other delusional people, mine aren't really delusions because I know they are right but I call them delusions for simplicity's sake. I was starting to self-harm and she warned me that she was going to call the police and have me involuntarily committed if I continued to do so and I told her I stopped, I didn't at the moment but I eventually did stop, and a little bit later we were talking about what would get me committed. She said that my delusions would not cause her to have me committed as long as I continued to do well in school because school kept me out of trouble and it was the delusions that were compelling me to do well in the first place so I guess she saw it as a necessary evil and that the results were far too beneficial to condemn the means. Well she started to list off things that if I said ,in front of her or in front of others, or did would lead me to the quickest path of institutionalization, and she started to list off delusions that, if shared with her, would lead her to be forced to call the police and have me be sent to a mental hospital, and I noticed that the delusion that I mentioned earlier was on that list. So I am confused about what I should do, she wants me to divulge the delusion, as it is a crucial aspect in my treatment, but if she was truthful earlier it would lead me to be committed and then they would take away what I know is right and in doing so take away, essentially, my purpose for living. What should I do? Any advice?