Day 5

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Well I got into bed last night at 11 as I was feeling terrible. I was weak and heebie jeebied. I did manage to get some sleep. I woke up and was out of bed at 830am, which is early for me, but....

I think I turned the corner!!! I do not want to jinx it as I have only been up for an hour. I am definitely more calm and not having that restless feeling. I do have a pretty bad headache but that is probably because I am definitely a bit dehydrated and have not been eating. I know I needed to make sure I did, but it was so hard when you are feeling so bad.

I just hope it continues through the day.
 
The ativan DEFINITELY helped, which surprises me since xanax is more potent. Anyway it calmed me down. The underlying restlesness is still there, but the sedating effect neutralized it. The one good thing also is ativan causes amnesiac properties as well so it made the last few hours pass much better. I will take a dose before bed and lets hope I wake up tommorow in better shape.
 
I've never had an addiction issue .. well maybe I drank a little too much in my younger days and I smoked once. ;)

I just wanted to say that I'm impressed with your determination and willpower musicman3, keep up the good work mate your doing great.

Good luck. :)
 
Courage. I am sure you have plenty or you would not have taken this on. I hope the best for you. Do not let your drug of choice play with your mind. Often this is what happens when someone is trying to get clean and do not forget about half lifes of drugs. Some of it may not even be out of your system for a week to two weeks. I am sure of that. Sincerely, searchin Watch out for you own mind games.
 
Thanks everyone..but I jinxed myself. My anxiety is out of control, so I think something is else going on that may not be related to the withdrawals. I have been done this road many times and by day 5 there is a noticeable improvement. I used to be able to go to work with no problem. This time, trying to walk across the hall to go to the bathroom is a chore.

My doctor has called in ativan. the xanax did not help me much. To all my well wishers and those who are going through this, do not get discouraged. This is really atypical and I may be having some stress issues going on in addition to dehydration. It does get better and I know it does.
 
Hi, I am wishing you the best and following your story. I left you and jeRABter a post, my 1st one on the other ? forum (oxy) but I spent hours last night reading when I found this forum. I was hoping to find your update.

Thanks for talking, it really helps to hear someone else and how they are doing it and what to expect, etc. I admire you for doing that.

Thanks :wave:
 
Just took 1 mg of ativan. It has calmed me a bit but is making me feel very loopy weird. I have had this drug quite a few times, especially via IV at hospital so I am familiar with its effects. I am not happy about having to use benzos this week, because of the addictive qualities, even though I have never ever had any issue with them or found them remotely recreational. I hope today is the end of the anxiety so I do not have to take them. So in 5 days I have had 7 .5mgs of xanax, and this 1 mg of ativan, I hope that is not too much.
 
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