Day #2...still going for it

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Morning all. Well here goes day nuraber 2. Not working this morning so am having to find things to do...idle hanRAB and all that. Am trying hard to structure my day so as not to leave to many gaps where I have time to think. My big worry is that hubby has a day off today too and he is still struggling with the WANT to get clean. I am so going to try and not let his use pull me down. He has promised me that he is going to do a day with me today so I hope that promise is one he fulfills. This is one of my biggest concerns that Im going to have to face....if we cant do it together then what next? Guess I will have to deal with that as it unfolRAB.
So,mood is pretty good right now but I have noticed I have been very up and down of late. Does anyone else go through that? Is it because Im trying to just stick to my script and cut out the use on top? Or is it just me? I dont know,but I do find that if I get low that the cravings get awful.
So...to keep busy today. Maybe some of you could give me some encouragement later on when I need.
By the way, apologys to all as Im trying to keep my post free of 'text speak'. Administrator told me it was difficult for some of yous to follow and for that,I apologise. Am also trying to keep the cockney londoner underwraps too but that one is really hard! Keep having to delete and re-write. Hope not to of offended anyone.
love.........CC xoxox
 
Cheers --It is VERY natural to have ups and downs. I have done this so many times to know that we have a roller coaster few weeks ahead of us. What taper plan are you on? let me know a little more about your day. there are certainly things to do to keep us clean and remeraber --the worst thing is being near someone that is using. That is just not fair to you right now, so separate yourself for now, then teach him that it can be done! be a role model. --NA --maybe to get some support.? It WILL help. I was anti-NA for sooooo long, then I started to go, didnt get a sponsor or any of that, just went a few times a week and that is the key to my 8 months of clean time I had, I think that its the reason I relapsed! I stopped going around christmas!

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CC,

I am so proud of you girl! I really am!!!! Day 2.... this will be your test. I have faith that you will find the strength. I have praying long and hard for you. I hope it helps.

I know right now the roller coaster ride you are on and it sucks big time! Just hang on for dear life and try to learn from the ride. I too have been struggling with not using. I have been busying myself but I can't help but to have feelings of...... a relapse is in my future and that scares the crap out of me.

For you... I want you to try and be as strong as you can. I have learned I have to start taking some of the advice that I give out.. Maybe try to think of it that way too.... Why is it always easier to solve everyone else's problems then our own???

Just know I am here for you!
XOXOOXOXO
 
I am so proud of you! Since I found these boarRAB, you were one of many who showed me I am not alone! I hope your cravings are less and less. To answer your question about being up then down...yes...I go through the same thing. Right now I am not doing as good as I should be with my weening! Not to make excuses but my bad back and hip are killing me. This weekend I got down on my knees to clean the fridg. And now I have been paying for it ever since! So things like this make the weening harder. One minute I think I'm ok, the next I have anxiety, guilt, depression and on and on. So yes...I am the same way up and down!
I hope your day goes good!
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