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Hey Buddy,

Just wanted you to know I was here too.. I am so glad the appointment went well.... You hang in there and we are here when you are in need!
XOXOXOX
 
FullCircle,

Are you doing okay? I am just reading this now.. I am worried about you!!!! Please give an update so we know how you are doing.

Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!
XOXOXOXO
 
Had an OK night with sleep. I can feel the bowels coming on this AM. This was alot easier before when you didnt know what to expect. I think that knowing that its going to suck makes it worse. I am not even close being a "bit" bad yet and that scares the crap out of me. I am still asking myself "WHY?" How can I do this to myself over and over. As reach has stated in the past I have some good tools in my toolbox and I just need to make them all work. I am happy about the visit today because my hopes are that I have a solid "plan" in effect when I leave. I am soooo scared that he will just blow me off and tell me to go to rehab. That is not even an option. This will be a rough morning at work.

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Hi guys --just got back a bit ago and it went "OK". This was my first appt with this Dr and I had no clue what to expect. I told him the truth and he was fine. Surprised me a bit that he was clueless to the word Oxy or "contin" ?? he has been in the business for 20 years--anyway he put me on a low dose oxy and on a great taper plan. He kept asking me over and over if this was on the UP and UP and it made me feel a little uneasy, but whats done is done. A few weeks and this will be over once and for all. the taper plan goes - 6 -for 2 days, then 5 for 2, then 4 for 2, then 3 for 2, then 2 for 2, then 1 for 3 and thats it. --I think this may be better than the CT that I was going to do. this am, I was a mess! a true puddle of poop. I feel much better about this now and I hope it goes well and semi-comfort. My nerves are a bit at ease now and I am having a better day. Thanks for all that have responded. Love you guys.

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Hi friend...I was thinking about you and thought I would say HELLO. If you have a change send us s post and let us know how your doing. Like I told you in previous posts, I am also weening...trying to get to 6 per day! I hope the withdrawls aren't to bad.
Crocheting
 
Hi guys --sittin at work --trying to deal with the YUKS~ Still not sure how to approach this afternoons appt. I will be evident by my BP and Pulse that I am a mess, I was given a whole MEDICAL HISTORY sheet to fill out and I could really mark it up right now! I dont want this guys to be freeked out right way and think that I am some nut ball. It is pretty ironic that I am in my first real day of 3/4 full WD's and I have had this dr appt set up for 2 months! maybe that is a sign! Wish me luck --I hope that all of you doing ok and getting by.

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You were on my mind all day....I am so pleased you are going to taper, you will still be able to funtion and not be miserable. Cold turkey really would have took a lot out of you! Good luck to you, keep us posted on how you are doing.
Crocheting
 
Hiya mate. So glad that the dr's went well and that you decided not to go cold turkey. I think that this will be so much more bearable for you (and your family). Could you let us know how you get on.....we can have a site party when you get there!! Am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. You can and will do this.
love CC XOXOX
 
Hi all --Reach it is so GREAT to hear your voice. I could feel your presence and I can respect why you have kept your distance. I wont let you down! Thanks for all the kind worRAB from all of you. If anyone has looked back at my history, you would know that I am NOT a fan of a taper. I would prefer to JUST GET IT OVER WITH, but I have to do this because of work. Tapering seems like a slow death, I would rather just get it over with! but i will cont with this. Instead of feeling HORRIBLE I feel semi-horrible. LOL. I am going get some exercise in right now --force my butt up and get going. It will make me feel better before work later.


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I am such a mess right now --crying confused etc. I want this over and that is where I am confused. Do I just ask the dr to help with withdrawls and not think about a taper plan? Take a week from hell and get this over with! I do not want to drag this on any longer than it neeRAB to. I am an emotional mess right now. . Please help.

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Hey friend my heart is breaking :( for you.....because I know just how you feel. I would give up the norco completely , but my chronic pain will not allow that! As soon as I get to 6 a day....home free. I know the guilt, tired of being tired, confusion, scared....and certainly not wanting to send up red flags to the docs. Here's my take.....if you don't plan on taking any pain meRAB. Anymore for your medical condition....you have to make that horrible choice...weening or cold turkey. Me personally will only taper down to six...not jump right to six and make myself sick. I am a homemaker so I don't have to worry about looking like I am ok at work.....but...I am a wife and mother...I won't put my family through that hell ever again. If your so upset over how to approach this doc....get more 5/500....to help with the weening off of Oxycotin.....then you can still set a goal and function at the same time. Remeraber in the past two months I weened off completely 120 mg. Oxycotin per day....personally for me....it was hell even still taking my norco....for me I had never taken oxycotin before...always hydro.....the withdrawls for me were totally different....and horrible mentally real bad....I have to be honest....this is just me sharing my recent experience. Please let me know how your doing? Just to let you know....the oxycotin had me an emotional reck as well.....it is a different tamale.....hydro. Never made me feel that put of it.....even when I went cold turkey with the hydro.....just remeraber...for me the oxycotin is a whole new ball game! Post soon!
Crocheting
 
Hi Buddy

Just want you to know I am here... just watching for now. Stay strong, believe it, claim it.

reach
 
Well it has been a long time and I want to congratulate you for your efforts. I am going off today too. Cold turkey. I tapered really from 6 one day to 4 the next day to 3 then 1. Put in a refill and Dr. said no. Supplier is out. I was doing 8-10 10/325 hydros a day. I have the flu anyway so this might have been a good time to do this. I can't really tell the difference. (lol) I have not been on the board for ever, they even made me re-up. I'm proud of my Doc for rejecting me. She knows the situation in that there is some pain but I am way over using. She even knows I am probably going through withdrawls and is waiting for me to call her as we are frienRAB. I won't. I'll see how this goes. I can't go on using these damn pills. They don't even get me high anymore. That's pathetic. I'm pathetic. You hang in FC. I may start my own thread but I wanted to let you know I remeraber the last time you did this and you were so proud. Go back to that place. Your family and job were so important to you then as they are now. I'm curious, how did you go back?
Much love and peace. You deserve that.
RR
 
Hello mate. Sorry Im so late for you......have had afew probs with laptop today and its taken me a while to get sorted. How I wish I was there to give you a big cuddle. Darlin...is there some reason while you want to do this cold turkey? Would it be possible to taper.......even quickly would maybe a little more bearable. Maybe thats not an option for you......just a thought.
Well done for making it into work....thats so commendable. I forced myself to go in today and sometimes it helps just to see the normal world around. ReminRAB me to focus on what Im really aiming for. I only do 3 mornings a week but spend the rest of my time being a housewife with 2 small boys...4 and 6 yrs. They're awesome. SounRAB like you have a great wife and kiRAB too. I understand that sometimes that makes the guilt even worse but remeraber that you have peeps close by who really love you.
You know that my weekend was a blow out so I understand totally where u r coming from. Im here for you , friend......just post it out to me and I will help where ever I can. Always willing to have me ear bent for a vent. I understand how the emotions come out from nowhere......one second I feel OK....the next I feel like hell......the next Im in flooRAB .......etc.
On for a few more hours yet so will check for ur posts.
love........CC xoxox
 
hey RR --great to hear from you. Looking back on this I think the key was 2 things. 1) Alcohol, 2) stop going to NA. I never really accepted that alcohol was a drug but I kept drinking each night. nothing big, a drink or 2 but it kept me very vulnerable. I love the feeling of pills and alcohol so it was dangerous and sure thing I thought that having just one or two would not be a problem. WOW was that the addict speaking. My wife did a GREAT job at keeping the $$$$ away from me so I really had NO way since the online was pill supplier was SUPER $$$. So as the story goes, I got cash and was able to get 80MG OXY !!! Talk about stupid. I was blown away. Stuff rocked me. I was semi-smart enough to not take more than one pill a day, but that was enough. Cash ran dry and here I am. Amazing how fast it happens huh! I am on a taper right now and need to get my clean time back and get back to NA. The steps are going to be key for me. I need to work the steps slowly. I never got a sponsor or anything. NO MATTER what you think NA really works and REALLY keeps you focused on your task. You need to have NO LESS than 2 years under your belt before you EVEN think about slowing down your attendance. That is it. so sad since I had 8 months under my belt! i will get more and cant wait to celebrate on here a year or so from now!

love
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Thanks for filling me in. I've been off the hydros for a week and feeling pretty good. Keep up your NA work. I am following the board and some work with a friend on the phone. It's a long story but staying private is not as easy for me as for some. It's truly not an excuse. I am always so fear based. Afraid of having the crutch of the pills and afraid of not having that same crutch. I don't know if that makes any sense. My life feels so hard. Business is bad, I work diligently everyday and it just seems to go no where. I want all the stimulus stuff to work and just hope and pray everyone changes their habits and starts buying stuff. Anything. Houses, cars, furniture, whatever. Banks need to get their act together. I deal with them everyday and no wonder they are all out of money. They waste so much time and energy and use so many attorneys for every little move. Sorry for going off like that. I'm frustrated in so many ways. FC Hang in there, You seem like a really great guy and I remeraber you from before. The pride in your posts after each day of your recovery was so inspiring. Again, go back there and read those. You were amazing and will be again. We will all come out of this stronger, healthier and with more resolve than ever before. Everyone, have a great weekend. Love your frienRAB and family, take a deep breath or a long walk and love being you.
RR
 
RR --thanks for your kind worRAB. I did go back and read and re-read the posts. I will have some serious crap to go through in the next few days but after that the weather will get better day by day. I know that for sure. I am not guessing. I have been here before. I will do this

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