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musicman3
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Hi everyone,
Good news is my father had a stent in and all is well. Everything looks fine and he will be home tommorow. I was able to get out of my trip, so that is good. Now on to me..
Honestly, I am not feeling well at all. I do not have any cravings, so it is not opiate related, but I can not shake this awful malaise jittery feeling. I have been taking the ativan, and again, I am not going to worry about taking it for 10 days as I rarely take it. I can not imagine where I would be if I did not have it.
I am having a HUGE problem with eating or drinking. Firstly, I have no appetite. So putting anything in my mouth is nasty and since I am losing nutrients, I am feeling beyond weak. Bringing my 8 days of laundry downstaris took everything out of me. I am out of breath and weak. Now I quits smoking last week. I had quit for 22 years, but funny enough, when my dad went through this hellish stent last August, I impulsively bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked. I NEVER had a craving in 22 years. Matter of fact, my mother died of lung cancer so you would thing that THAT alone would solidify I would continue to never smoke again. The fact that I started smoking was so traumatizing to me, I fully believe that affected my psyche so bad that it kicked in the anxiety issues that EXPlLODED over the last year or so. Anyway, I stopped a few times over the year with that patch, but would go back to it. Now let me tell you with my fullest conviction... I will NEVER smoke again. The though of putting one to my mouth makes me so anxiety riddled, I dont think I could even do it if I wanted to. I have NO craving for one.
So right now I am left with malaise and a hacking dry cough that makes me dry heave and leaves me weak and no appetite.
Reachout..f you happen to read this.. do you feel that this 7-10 days f moderatly low usage of Ativan is going to cause me issues? It takes teh edge off but I certainly do not get a buzz for it and it actually is not helping me sleep at all.
Anyway thanks for listening. I know things take time. I may just be in a bad rut of things with life issues and perhaps I am genuinelly sick, But the God;s honest truth is I have zero craving to take an opiate and I guess thats a good thing.
I will keep going foward... been almost 240 hours.. It has passed fast, I actually am not counting. I always hated counting, I thing it can be counter productive, so even though I been posting every day, I truly am not thinking of the nuraber. I think I am just venting,
Good news is my father had a stent in and all is well. Everything looks fine and he will be home tommorow. I was able to get out of my trip, so that is good. Now on to me..
Honestly, I am not feeling well at all. I do not have any cravings, so it is not opiate related, but I can not shake this awful malaise jittery feeling. I have been taking the ativan, and again, I am not going to worry about taking it for 10 days as I rarely take it. I can not imagine where I would be if I did not have it.
I am having a HUGE problem with eating or drinking. Firstly, I have no appetite. So putting anything in my mouth is nasty and since I am losing nutrients, I am feeling beyond weak. Bringing my 8 days of laundry downstaris took everything out of me. I am out of breath and weak. Now I quits smoking last week. I had quit for 22 years, but funny enough, when my dad went through this hellish stent last August, I impulsively bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked. I NEVER had a craving in 22 years. Matter of fact, my mother died of lung cancer so you would thing that THAT alone would solidify I would continue to never smoke again. The fact that I started smoking was so traumatizing to me, I fully believe that affected my psyche so bad that it kicked in the anxiety issues that EXPlLODED over the last year or so. Anyway, I stopped a few times over the year with that patch, but would go back to it. Now let me tell you with my fullest conviction... I will NEVER smoke again. The though of putting one to my mouth makes me so anxiety riddled, I dont think I could even do it if I wanted to. I have NO craving for one.
So right now I am left with malaise and a hacking dry cough that makes me dry heave and leaves me weak and no appetite.
Reachout..f you happen to read this.. do you feel that this 7-10 days f moderatly low usage of Ativan is going to cause me issues? It takes teh edge off but I certainly do not get a buzz for it and it actually is not helping me sleep at all.
Anyway thanks for listening. I know things take time. I may just be in a bad rut of things with life issues and perhaps I am genuinelly sick, But the God;s honest truth is I have zero craving to take an opiate and I guess thats a good thing.
I will keep going foward... been almost 240 hours.. It has passed fast, I actually am not counting. I always hated counting, I thing it can be counter productive, so even though I been posting every day, I truly am not thinking of the nuraber. I think I am just venting,