meestymeister
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This is going to be a little long, if you want to read you're more than welcome to,
Could the reason I've been finding a relationship with a woman more attractive because I'm having current issues with the one I'm already in? I've only had 3 serious relationships. The 3rd one I'm still a part of it, the first 2 I was cheated on. The first was my first _serious_ relationship in high school and it lasted on and off through high school. Why I let it go on I have no idea. The 2nd one was my first _serious_ relationship after turning 18 it lasted 3 years, after which I found out he was cheating on me for 5 months before I found out and ended it. I put into any relationship what I wish to have back from it. I'm not one to be needy, pushy,self-centered or immature.
The current relationship has become a companionship, for too many reasons, I don't want to discuss it but I'll give the bare facts and they are, we don't have sex he don't want it, yes I've tried everything to catch his attention in and out of the bedroom he claims there's nothing wrong. I can count using both my hands and feet how many times we have had sex in the 3 years we've been together.
That being said, When I was single for a little while, I met a woman. We became close and ended up being best friends, shared everything. She became my first experience with a woman. I remember it being soooooo full of affection,love,compassion. Tenderness,electricity and _fire_. I NEVER in my life felt like that when I had been with a man. It wasn't just the intimacy that felt that way, I felt so much alive. I could actually talk to her and have "woman" conversation and hear a human voice rather than feel like I was talking to a wall. (Of course there's men out there equally capable of holding a conversation as well) I felt _happy for once in my life. But, the reason we never made a relationship out of it, because I was scared of how I felt. My family is accepting so there's no bother there. But I was afraid because it was all new to me, I had just come to terms with my own sexuality and it wouldn't have been fair to her because I couldn't figure out what I wanted. I was also inbetween relationships 2 and 3 ( hadn't met number 3 just yet). I wish I had let the relationship unfold, I'll bet I would have been happier, more than I ever hoped.
But Could my finding a relationship with a woman more attractive be because the current relationship is having issues or is it because I perhaps have developed a stronger attraction to women since I've been with the current guy, or what would your input be?
Could the reason I've been finding a relationship with a woman more attractive because I'm having current issues with the one I'm already in? I've only had 3 serious relationships. The 3rd one I'm still a part of it, the first 2 I was cheated on. The first was my first _serious_ relationship in high school and it lasted on and off through high school. Why I let it go on I have no idea. The 2nd one was my first _serious_ relationship after turning 18 it lasted 3 years, after which I found out he was cheating on me for 5 months before I found out and ended it. I put into any relationship what I wish to have back from it. I'm not one to be needy, pushy,self-centered or immature.
The current relationship has become a companionship, for too many reasons, I don't want to discuss it but I'll give the bare facts and they are, we don't have sex he don't want it, yes I've tried everything to catch his attention in and out of the bedroom he claims there's nothing wrong. I can count using both my hands and feet how many times we have had sex in the 3 years we've been together.
That being said, When I was single for a little while, I met a woman. We became close and ended up being best friends, shared everything. She became my first experience with a woman. I remember it being soooooo full of affection,love,compassion. Tenderness,electricity and _fire_. I NEVER in my life felt like that when I had been with a man. It wasn't just the intimacy that felt that way, I felt so much alive. I could actually talk to her and have "woman" conversation and hear a human voice rather than feel like I was talking to a wall. (Of course there's men out there equally capable of holding a conversation as well) I felt _happy for once in my life. But, the reason we never made a relationship out of it, because I was scared of how I felt. My family is accepting so there's no bother there. But I was afraid because it was all new to me, I had just come to terms with my own sexuality and it wouldn't have been fair to her because I couldn't figure out what I wanted. I was also inbetween relationships 2 and 3 ( hadn't met number 3 just yet). I wish I had let the relationship unfold, I'll bet I would have been happier, more than I ever hoped.
But Could my finding a relationship with a woman more attractive be because the current relationship is having issues or is it because I perhaps have developed a stronger attraction to women since I've been with the current guy, or what would your input be?