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I feel so lost right now and I guess I need some guidance from other Christian people. My husband and I go to my husband's uncles church. It is a Baptist church and I was raised Pentecostal. I wasn't so worried about where we went when we were dating so I just started going there with him. We have been married for a several years now and I am not sure this is where I belong. Our Pastor preaches that it is impossible to lose your salvation when you are saved. I'm not sure if that is true or not. I know a lot of people that agree, some that don't. Our whole congregation believes this and I just wish there were a definite answer because I feel like I have failed Him SO many times and done really horrible things since I got "saved" at 14 and I feel like he should have just turned his back on me by now. I'm so scared that he has and I think about it all through the day. It has my nervous and upset a lot and if I'm in a good mood I will remember something I've done and will cry out of fear. I don't know what to do anymore.
Also, Sunday mornings are hell at my house. My husband refuses to go to bed early and he lays in bed until the very last minute (our church starts at 10am, he will get up at 9:50!) It drives me insane and there is an argument every single Sunday. I'm sick of arguing in front of my son, I'm sick of being late and I'm sick of being in a bad mood at church and bringing that negativity in. I don't drive so we HAVE to ride with him. I've told him I will get a ride with another member and he gets mad. I don't know what to do! It makes me not want to go. I am laying here now dreading it, pretty sure I'm not even going in the morning just to avoid the situation.
I just need to know that God loves me still and that I really am saved. I'm so tired of worrying about it and I just want to start a relationship with Him instead of feeling ashamed and almost avoiding Him. I've started praying with my little boy and tonight I was just bawling, begging for forgiveness and I felt like God was with me, but how do I know for sure?! Being a Christian is so hard sometimes!
Sammi, I am happy that you're leading a happy life. I assure you it won't last without God, though. You need him in your life like you need blood. Trust me, one day all those who were told the truth (like I'm telling you now) and didn't care enough to find Him will be begging for His forgiveness and it's going to be too late. I don't want to be one of those people. I pray that you rethink what you "think" you know. =)
Also, Sunday mornings are hell at my house. My husband refuses to go to bed early and he lays in bed until the very last minute (our church starts at 10am, he will get up at 9:50!) It drives me insane and there is an argument every single Sunday. I'm sick of arguing in front of my son, I'm sick of being late and I'm sick of being in a bad mood at church and bringing that negativity in. I don't drive so we HAVE to ride with him. I've told him I will get a ride with another member and he gets mad. I don't know what to do! It makes me not want to go. I am laying here now dreading it, pretty sure I'm not even going in the morning just to avoid the situation.
I just need to know that God loves me still and that I really am saved. I'm so tired of worrying about it and I just want to start a relationship with Him instead of feeling ashamed and almost avoiding Him. I've started praying with my little boy and tonight I was just bawling, begging for forgiveness and I felt like God was with me, but how do I know for sure?! Being a Christian is so hard sometimes!
Sammi, I am happy that you're leading a happy life. I assure you it won't last without God, though. You need him in your life like you need blood. Trust me, one day all those who were told the truth (like I'm telling you now) and didn't care enough to find Him will be begging for His forgiveness and it's going to be too late. I don't want to be one of those people. I pray that you rethink what you "think" you know. =)