Checking in -- but not good news

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Hi to all my frienRAB old and new -- When I was last here (in March), I was tapering off oxycodone (which I take for disabling back pain) and was down to 20 mg. Then, all he** broke loose with my life. I don't want to provide identifying details, but suffice it to say, I have major stressful and upsetting events going on. With the lower doses of oxy, the pain was increasing and I couldn't even function. I have so much to do, and I can't get anything done without it.

Well, it turns out that even going back up in dosage, I am still miserable from all the stress. I am extremely irritable and don't even want to talk to my family or frienRAB. I'm hyper-edgy and overwhelmed. But....I just wanted to say hello and I'm glad to hear some of you are still doing so well. I wish I could be too! I swear, once I am settled down some, I will try again....I can't STAND being this way!
 
Just keep hanging in there and talking to us so we can help out.

Yes, I have found that some pills seems to work differently from different manufacturers - especially generic opposed to brand name drugs. The FDA is too busy worrying why 5 people got sick from peanuts instead of monitoring the safety of drugs manufactured in other countries coming into the US or even controlling the problem with non-inflammatory drugs (7,600 deaths and 76,000 hospitalizations each year).

I think all prescriptions should show the country where they were manufacturered and we the people taking the drugs (not our corner-cutting insurance companies) should be able to say we don't want drugs from certain countries.

Anyway... Start the taper, get something to calm your nerves, handle the w/d's the best you can and keep us informed how you're doing.
 
Sorry to hear about the crappy things that are going on in your life right now. And am even more sorry to hear that it made you go back to your old habits.

Have you talked to your doctor about the stress that is going on in your life? Percocet is not a stress reliever (even thought a lot of us have used it to cope with stress). You may need an antidepressant of something.

I hope that things get better and I'll send some positive thoughts your way.

Namaste
 
Well, I wish I could welcome you back with better news from you. Sorry to hear about all of the stress in your life. Have you talked to your doctor about it? Maybe something like Valium or Xanax might take the edge off of the stress to help you cope more. I would highly recommend setting aside some alone time everyday without any interruptions and just try to relax and do deep breathing exercises to help relieve the stress building up in your body. Go in the bathroom and close the door if people won't let you alone. Stress will definitely make you feel the pain more! So sorry to hear that things aren't going good for you. Stay here and we'll keep you company while you take your mind off of the stressful things. Sometimes just talking about it and getting it out helps you to feel better. Good luck to you!!
 
Hey!!!

Good to hear from you again! I just wish it was going better for you!! I am so sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. How miserable!

Obviously I don't know what this stress is that you speak of and that is okay but I just wanted to show you some support and tell you that even if you don't tell us what it is... you can still come and vent in a round about way!! :wave:

We are here for you! Keep us posted! Thinking of you! I hope your pain starts easing up on you!

Hugs!
 
Speaking of the "false energy" provided by the pills -- THAT is the reason I really started using them (oxycodone) on a daily basis. It wasn't that they relieved the pain -- they only dulled my pain, which is nerve pain and not like a toothache or whatever. It never goes away....always is there, shooting down my leg like it's on fire. Even the heat from this laptop is killin' me. But I digress. I started taking oxy after dental surgery. I knew I shouldn't take a narcotic, because of an addiction problem 30 years ago. At first they made me nauseous. But as I got used to them, the nausea subsided and I noticed this burst of energy. Wow, I liked that! Long story short, it's now six years later and I have NO energy without them. When I start tapering, I can barely move. The more I take, the more I can get done. I really didn't know that a narcotic could "perk" me up like that....I thought it would have the opposite effect. Anyway, that is one of the reasons it's so hard for me to taper. Last time I tried, I was running out of food in the house....couldn't even make a run to the store....very sad how they are in control of my body and my life.

Thanks again for all your support, guys.
 
I love you guys. Two responses in just a couple minutes! Anyway, yes I am on Welbutrin, but not a high dose. The higher dose caused too many stomach problems. Amazing how my stomach manages to deal with 60 mg of oxy a day, though, huh.

I think I will ask the PM for Valium after I get settled and try the taper again. When I detoxed from methadone a hundred years ago, Valium was a wonder-drug. I do have Clonidine, BTW, and it didn't help me at all with the WD symptoms...made me a zorabie though.

You know how "when it rains, it pours"? Aside from all the major stressful events, there are also all kinRAB of little unrelated things going wrong that end up taking time and a lot of MONEY to fix. More stress. Another poster said she felt "rage". That's exactly how I feel most of the time these days. Even suicidal...though I'd never do that to my family so don't panic. But that's how miserable and overwhelmed I've become.

The good news is -- I feel better since I've gotten back on the board here. Just knowing there are others going through the same thing, and that there are others who can relate and who HAVE gotten through this, and are supportive despite my taper failures -- well, it's invaluable. As the movie title says -- "I love you, man!"

P.S. Does anyone find that a switch in manufacturers can affect the effectiveness of the drug? I just received a new scrip and I swear it's the reason I'm still such a mess despite taking the oxy. I found an old one and suddenly, I feel back to normal.
 
yes 60 mgs will cover up the pain. stomach pain . i have fibro siatica arthrits . an was on 20mgs for 6weeks. i tapered before it got out of hand . the pills tryed to make me think i had more energy . but i was slowly loseing all energy.after taper i ride low impact bike stretching , an have alot more energy . you may want to tell you doctor, for most drugs an some other thing said . this is a tempary soultion to a permenent problem . or a permenent soultion to temporary problem . good luck an god bless. NA is in your local phone book .an remeraber we are all under alot of stress in this day an age so your not alone :)
 
hi not perky. i got the same feeling for a few hours then the sedation. then no enegy at all hang in there it will get better ,remeraber its allways the first 4 to 5 days that seem to be the worst , at night i get that burn in my calf when i lay on my back. then when i lay on my side it helps, this is from the siatica . wich was so bad at first that i could not feel the sytemes from the fibro. hang in there an read others threaRAB to identify with the pain that alot of us have legit.
 
Hey 56, thanks for the reply and support. Yes, I do have real pain -- in fact, my symptoms sound just like Denon's, only mine is coming from my lurabar as well as cervical spine. The worst pain is down my leg, from L4-5 or L5-S1, but I also have achy/nurab hand and feet, which I think is coming from the cervical area. I've had surgery, which didn't help, and further surgery is not an option due to the DDD all through my spine. So I'm left with pills. And I just hate what I've become. I was watching "Intervention" tonight, and I sound just like the young girl who was an alcoholic....withdrawing from life, not caring about my appearance....everything is too much trouble, unless I'm hyped-up on the darn pills. The thing is, I think if I were able to get off them, my pain level wouldn't be that much worse. I just think the pain is exaggerated when I try to taper, because my body is crying out for the oxy.
 
yes the pain is exagerated for sure. dont be so hard on yourself yourself . your going to be ok. have you thought about mettings for support . this is what i do an advocate . read my post to rarableing on , secrets is such an insperation, an so are you. i know you can do this , its true they kill the pain for awile then make it worce . they told me to give surgury about 2%concideration , staying active after i went threw the wd has been good with aleve for pain heat , an more energy . talk with your md about alternatives an a taper plan . till next time scott you can do it an there are alot of people willing to help you . they will give the shirt off there back:):wave:
 
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