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Sydelle :)
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i just turned 16, and i want a car more than anything in the entire world. i took drivers ed as soon as i turned 15, and had an entire year of driving experience. i did this so that i would be ready to drive when i turn 16. really all i wanted was to have the classic 16th birthday and get a car, no matter how horribly tacky and old it may be. instead, my mom took me bowling. she told me that i'll get a car sometime in the next year. the thing is, every time someone in my grade turns 16 and gets their car, i start crying. i can't even control it. it's just something that i've wanted so much for so long, and it's killing me that i can't have it. everyone looks forward to getting a car when they turn 16 and getting a job. basically being independent. it's generally something that you can expect in life. but instead of wanting it a little bit, i want it a lot. i want it more than anyone can imagine. and i have no way of getting it. i am completely at the mercy of my parents. every time i so much as think about cars. or driving, or see someone my age with a car and their independence, i just cry. i break down and cry. does anyone have any advice for helping me cope with this? i realize that this seems like a shallow concern, and i probably sound like a complete brat, but i care about it. i care about it so much that it hurts. i care about it so much that i actually experience physical pain just thinking about it. is there something wrong with me? i don't think it's normal to be so obsessive over something. i think the thing that makes me so sad is that it's something that i've wanted for so long, and it's something i want more than anyone else, something i've been counting on, and still i can't have it. please give me any advice you have for getting through this. once again, i know i sound completely ridiculous, but i can't even begin to explain how much it means to me. what should i do?