Can someone give me a major confidence boost?

Maikook

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I live somwhere thats like a miniature London, it's a hip city but just smaller. There are about 6 main schools with many popular people who know each other (from school to school), I happened to go to 3 of these schools because i failed or whatever (i'm on my third), and i know so many of these popular kids and some of them happened to change schools ( to another main school) and their popularity got bigger, therefor, almost all these popular kids know eachother or have connections to each other, it's basically kind of like a cycle. I don't understand why i'm not part of these people, i could say i'm partially part, but very little..
I only have like 200 friends on facebook, which really depresses me because I see everyone with 500 to 1000 friends and on top of that I went to THREE schools, I know so many people who have been in the same school forever and have a massive amount of friends.. i just don't get it . The thing that really annoys me is that I look through my friend's lists and see SOOOO many people that i met once or a few times, or that i knew a long time ago, etc. and i'm just kicking myself because if i had added them as soon as i met them, right now I could have at least 350 to 400 friends and I'm not adding them because i'm "scared" they'll be like "who the hell is she?" Should I just go ahead and add them?

So really my problem is that I DO have sooo many connections and opportunities to "enter the world" but i'm just not that close to them or brave enough to hang out or reconnect with them. I feel irrelevent and useless, what can I do to be more social and outgoing to be part of this? How can I be a person that people REMEMBER and want to be with? because right now I feel the total opposite.

I know so many people are going to say "what do you care about popularity or the number of facebook friends you have", but i just want to "make it" so please can i get helpful and decent answers. Thank you
 
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