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I have suffered for years and years with this and when october hits i suffer so bad! now i have tried the sunlight, meRAB, therapy and so on but nothing takes away my fears especially once it turns dark outside, that is when it gets worse. My life is pretty much amazing, i have good kiRAB, moneys good and a terrific supportive husband. My frienRAB are great, i have a house and health seems to be good BUT i am always thinking and waiting for something bad to happen so that none of these good things will matter. My main thing is illness, i worry i am going to get ill especially as this time of year it is common, i worry about my kiRAB getting ill and what i will do if this happens. The only time i seem to be able to calm down is if i take meRAB such as xanax but they make me tired and one can not survive life like this! i awake with the thought is this day i die? will someone i know get sick? what is someone coughs in my face? and so on and i can never shake it! every waking hour is spent in fear, sometimes i don't even know what the fear is! sometimes i can talk myself out of it and shake my head at myself but it doesn't last long. I have been on celexa for a while and it does help but its this time of year, to me i feel death and illness surround me and i never want to go out in fear of this and when i do i don't enjoy it because i worry, i basically worry non stop. Therapy didn't help me nothing seems to because i can pin point why i have this feeling i just can't seem to make myself get better, i feel as though i am at my wits end right now.