Psychiatrists, psychology students or anyone with any kind of knowledge, any help will be appreciated.
I've had several depressive episodes when I had health problems but that's pretty understandable. So I recognize depression when I see it. But what I'm experiencing now is pretty peculiar...
For the past two weeks I have felt completely normal but gotten easily affected by things. Eg. If they do not bring my pizza EXACTLY the way I want it, I would not eat it and lose my appetite for days (I also have a bit of OCD if that's relevant but I would never get this affected).
Now if my mother is tired and not as loving as usual, I slip into some sort of depression, thinking that she doesn't love me at all and I'm just a liability on her and her life would be better if I were dead.
Day before yesterday, I was feeling pretty depressed and irritated the whole day (for no reason) and then I had some breakdown in front of my boyfriend (shouting, tears, “you don't love me”, “you never listen” and such...) and seriously threatened to kill myself. Poor guy was like “what the hell?”. I came out of it about 2 hours down the line and blamed PMS and hormones (that was all BS because my periods aren't due for like 2 weeks).
I feel alright now (except from being pretty anxious about this problem). I do not feel suicidal, in fact, I'm pretty confident about the future and even listening to Iggy Pop
But what is this nonsense happening to me? When I'm in those moods I have a reduced appetite and some stomach problems. I sleep 12 to 16 hours a day and STILL feel tired. I also have some hallucinations but none so serious as seeing people and stuff. And if something happens now like the electricity goes out in the house, I'll be back in that state. This can't be healthy.
Thanks for all answers
I've had several depressive episodes when I had health problems but that's pretty understandable. So I recognize depression when I see it. But what I'm experiencing now is pretty peculiar...
For the past two weeks I have felt completely normal but gotten easily affected by things. Eg. If they do not bring my pizza EXACTLY the way I want it, I would not eat it and lose my appetite for days (I also have a bit of OCD if that's relevant but I would never get this affected).
Now if my mother is tired and not as loving as usual, I slip into some sort of depression, thinking that she doesn't love me at all and I'm just a liability on her and her life would be better if I were dead.
Day before yesterday, I was feeling pretty depressed and irritated the whole day (for no reason) and then I had some breakdown in front of my boyfriend (shouting, tears, “you don't love me”, “you never listen” and such...) and seriously threatened to kill myself. Poor guy was like “what the hell?”. I came out of it about 2 hours down the line and blamed PMS and hormones (that was all BS because my periods aren't due for like 2 weeks).
I feel alright now (except from being pretty anxious about this problem). I do not feel suicidal, in fact, I'm pretty confident about the future and even listening to Iggy Pop
But what is this nonsense happening to me? When I'm in those moods I have a reduced appetite and some stomach problems. I sleep 12 to 16 hours a day and STILL feel tired. I also have some hallucinations but none so serious as seeing people and stuff. And if something happens now like the electricity goes out in the house, I'll be back in that state. This can't be healthy.
Thanks for all answers