Calling "cc" a.k.a lugar!!!

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CC,

If you are reading this.. please post to let us know you are okay... I don't care what the circumstance is... I am just really worried. Your name popped in my head this morning as soon as my eyes opened...

I hope everything is okay!!! Thinking of you friend.
XOXOXOX
 
Mate you are making me cry! Ive done soooo much of that the last day or so. Look under Mikes 'at the bottom post' as Ive written to you on that and then post me back on here if ya wanna chat. Would be nice to talk before you log off for weekend.I will be about all the time for a few hours.
Man , u r a great friend.
love.......CC
 
Heya - its so nice to be able to vent out on here. Its good to hear from you. I think ya right when you say theres a few of us who are finding it hard at the mo , but can I just say 'US' rocks! It good to be able to talk to peeps on here but stuff that is really going on for me. I do understand how bleedin tiring it can be pretending to family and frienRAB that all is OK when really its sometimes all a little crazy. My partner uses too so he knows all that side , but my family / work know nothin really of that. My close family know that Im on a meth script but think I stopped doin street gear about 6 years ago. They were so proud of me that I could never tell them that I never did get really clean cause it would just break my mums heart. She would worry herself to death bout me and the boys - I couldnt do that to her specially since my dad died 8 yrs sgo. My life to the outside looks pretty normal but inside its like chaos at the mo. I think there are good things and bad things to be had from telling your hubby. What I will say it that think carefully bout your choice cause theres no goin back. Good luck!
Listen I really hope you have a blindin weekend and manage to be strong. It is crap that you cant be on line cause I will be thinking of you and praying for your strength.Keep in mind seeing the quack and maybe a change of meRAB is just what u need. Its gonna help.
Talking on here will help too and I'll not be far way if you need.
CC XOXO
 
Hey!!!

I replied to you under Mike's thread...... Sorry.. Didn't meant to make you shed any more tears!!!!

If we chat back and forth it should probably chat under this thread so the moderators don't get upset for jacking some else's thread!

I know.. IT SUCKS to not have internet at home!!!!! All weekend I have to go with out the support of you guys..... Then Monday morning I have a doctors appointment because I am extremely depressed and anxious so they want to see me and change my meRAB around.... hopefully they can do something to help.. I am just feeling really low too..

It seems like a lot of us on here are in a bad place right now... I am thankful we all have each other to make it thru. I am so sick of these cravings.. STUPID PILLS!!!! UGH.

Well, an hour and a half to go and then home to drive myself nuts being bored for 2 days... hahahhaa Do you have any fun plans for the weekend?
XXOXO
 
Yeah, that is tough.. To the outside we all look so normal.... such neat little packages... If people only really knew the demons we fought... I totally understand about not wanting your family to know because it would break your Mom's heart. That I completely understand. I feel the same way about my Mom. I don't want my "issue" to hurt her. I am a big girl and it's my job to keep myself cleaned up.

As for my husband... I know.. I worry about what would happen if I told him.. I don't know.. It will be something that I have to think more about...

I know.. It really sucks big time that I don't have a computer at home... Seriously.. I will try to visit my parents this weekend and log on over there maybe but I don't know for sure if that will happen.. I just can't imagine with all this going on with everyone not knowing what is going on for the whole weekend.. I will be worried sick about everyone!

I am replying as I am holding a conversation with my boss so I better make some eye contact with him soon!! hahahhaa No, he literally just came out to my desk 2 seconRAB ago.... Too funny though!
T- 45 minutes.....
 
Just quickly before you have to go , remeraber this weekend just how well you have done. I know the cravings are huge , but shout out inside your mind that YOU R DONE! Im sooooo proud of you for doing as well as you have....its all a total mindfield of unchartered waters,and is the hardest thing ever but you have come so far. Hold onto the things this weekend that are familar - I mean , do stuff that you know helps keep your mind occupied.
I gonna hate the next few days.
Hey , question for ya........Are you like eating loaRAB now you're sober or not? I cant seem to stop eating - last night I even dreamt a cheese sarnie was sleeping next to me!! ha,ha,ha.
Have a good one
CC xOxo
 
Yes, I ate like a COW originally.. I seriously gained like 15 lbs... It really made me mad.. But now.. I have gotten used to it so eating is not the super bad part of this.... anymore that is..

I will be strong this weekend.. I have dealt with these cravings..I will deal with the ones to come. I hope you can too.

Boss is coming again.
 
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