I am still confused about my orientation. I am 19, getting over a girl I have been crazy for for the past 2 years. When I would just hug her, I felt complete and wanted her in my arms. I got hard, emotional, everything for her. It was full on attraction on all levels. Unfortunately she is a B%&$* and plays hard to get, so I cut it off with her completely. So my question is, why do I look at guys more than girls sometimes? Is it possible that I stare at guys because of my lack of self confidence and the fact I always feel like I need to look like them? First thing that runs through my head when I see a good looking guy is "wow I wish i looked like him."
I j-ck off to girls, find butt s*x with men repulsive, but I would maybe go as far as bl0wing a guy, BUT it is NOT a fantasy of mine whatsoever, I find women's genitals much more appealing. all my crushes have been on girls, and i've been in love with two. but what's the deal here? I WISH i could find girls like the 2 i've been in love with again, the feeling was out of this world when I was with them.
I would think that by now, 19 years old, I would at least be having fantasies of doing guys, at least liking guys, or anything, but I haven't. I am pretty sure if I was gay i wouldn't have had those feelings with a girl (and no they were not just FRIEND feelings) and I am also almost positive that gay guys do not like vgnas. am i just over thinking it too much? guess i need to get the hell over this girl cause she consumes my mind :X
looking at 2 guys doing it does nothing for me.
I j-ck off to girls, find butt s*x with men repulsive, but I would maybe go as far as bl0wing a guy, BUT it is NOT a fantasy of mine whatsoever, I find women's genitals much more appealing. all my crushes have been on girls, and i've been in love with two. but what's the deal here? I WISH i could find girls like the 2 i've been in love with again, the feeling was out of this world when I was with them.
I would think that by now, 19 years old, I would at least be having fantasies of doing guys, at least liking guys, or anything, but I haven't. I am pretty sure if I was gay i wouldn't have had those feelings with a girl (and no they were not just FRIEND feelings) and I am also almost positive that gay guys do not like vgnas. am i just over thinking it too much? guess i need to get the hell over this girl cause she consumes my mind :X
looking at 2 guys doing it does nothing for me.