Ever since 9th grade, my self-confidence has been slowly disintegrating. Now, I'm in my junior year, in college, and it's starting to strongly affect my life.
I'm burdened, now, by SO many regrets. They're small, but any regret can make someone feel so horrible. One regret, for example, is that I wished I had done something with my life (earlier), rather than constantly underestimating myself. I wish I took more AP or Dual-Enrollment classes, for instance.
Things like this is so difficult for me to forget. I try diligently to drop the past and move on, but it keeps coming back.
I've gone to months of counseling, and received great advice, but they're so difficult to apply. This problem has been in me, and unnoticed, for so long that it has become a part of who I am. And my counselor's advice basically tells me to change who I am.
I will say that my home--family--is a negative environment for me, but I can't get away from it. Since I'm financially dependent on my parents, they have power over me. And because, they forbade me from getting a job, until last year (when I an unsuccessful job hunt), I don't have any financial support for myself. Now, I'm seeking an internship, with hardly any job experience...The problems are endless, right now.
So, what can I do to remedy this long and haunting issue?
Please, please help me.
Thank you so much for your time and advice.
I'm burdened, now, by SO many regrets. They're small, but any regret can make someone feel so horrible. One regret, for example, is that I wished I had done something with my life (earlier), rather than constantly underestimating myself. I wish I took more AP or Dual-Enrollment classes, for instance.
Things like this is so difficult for me to forget. I try diligently to drop the past and move on, but it keeps coming back.
I've gone to months of counseling, and received great advice, but they're so difficult to apply. This problem has been in me, and unnoticed, for so long that it has become a part of who I am. And my counselor's advice basically tells me to change who I am.
I will say that my home--family--is a negative environment for me, but I can't get away from it. Since I'm financially dependent on my parents, they have power over me. And because, they forbade me from getting a job, until last year (when I an unsuccessful job hunt), I don't have any financial support for myself. Now, I'm seeking an internship, with hardly any job experience...The problems are endless, right now.
So, what can I do to remedy this long and haunting issue?
Please, please help me.
Thank you so much for your time and advice.