Bonds of chatting online?

[trixy]

I am a very lonely friendless person. I met one individual whom i loved very much, and I came on the internet and basically got hooked because of chatting with strangers that became good friends and that i know from facebook, all girls around my age. the thing is i lied about my identity and pretended to even be a guy and another girl. the only real friend i have left me because of my idiocy and once i was found out to be guilty i confesssed and was in very much pain. however i was forgiven by these people but lied to the only person again by pretending to be another person because i wanted to get a laugh out of the same people again. and i confesssed again. i knew i wasnt going to be forgiven this time and the reactions are more or less "wth is yur problem" and "i trusted you" and "i cant beleive you anymore." these are the only people im actually good friends with and its sad to realize theyre all from the internet. the only one that understood me is gone out of my life, and all the friends i had online i grew attached to think im a weird pedo and i never see them around anymore. I know I can never face them again I can never express my sorrow and I dont know why I do some stupid things on the internet like that to make them angry at me for lying later on. In the real world im living okay i dont have much trouble but this whole thing i did that really messed up other peoples lives internet or not bothers me to no end. I dont know what to do really anymore. Its hard to forget and move on.