its late 4am in fact. figured i would take some time to complain.
Mike and I have to move again. The neighbor called the town on our house and the town has served us a violation of illegal apartment. deja vu all over again. the landlord wants us to stay but we really dont want to deal with this process through the holidays. We believe the outcome will be that we need to get out. So we figured we would rather leave sooner then later.
A lot of good goes along with leaving. However a lot of bad goes along with it too. We will be moving in to his moms house. Its not so bad since she is a pot head and a pretty cool mom, but she seems to think nothing her son does is wrong. Also sucks because his brother luke plays the guitar, drums, and keyboard. Mikes family believes Luke should be able to express himself. This means at 8am he is pounding on his drums making a lot of noise while im trying to sleep. This means sunday mornings i am woken up by the keyboard. The guitar isnt so nosey unless he hooks it up to his amp. Another problem that goes along with this is that his brother John and I dont get along. John is a 19 y/o know it all who talks back to everyone. Problem with this is Mike and his mother tend to be a bit more submissive to john then i am. if john gets in my face i say something to him vs his brother and mother who ignore it. Another problem is grandpa. grandpa lost grandma and he is a miserable old man. a big part of me really loves grandpa. he does mean well but he is mean and bitter and likes to lecture and yell. i guess it goes along with old age. considering his age and the fact that it is technically his house i never know how to react when he yells at me. i dont know what to say or do. should i talk back and explain my side or should i yes him to death? should i possibly say sorry over and over again and try and make him feel bad he is yelling at me? Last problem is the clutter in the house. its really a 4 bedroom house and 6 people will now be living in it. also we have two cats and a dog that we are bringing. mikes family has 7 cats and a dog. the house is going to be so full all the time.
im going to try and make the best out of it. go out whenever i can, save money, enjoy life and most importantly GO BACK TO SCHOOL. my cousin im'd me randomly out of the blue. she is like 15 years older then me. She use to babysit me when i was little. She tells me how im good with animals and kids so i should go to school for that. i dont know what planet she is living on. maybe i enjoyed animals and children when i was 15 but its really not where my head is. she pretends like she knows me when in fact she doesnt. silly second or third or whatever cousin she is. she is actually my moms cousin so whetever that makes her to me. i hate people butting into my life. its my job to live my life its her job to live her life. im 22 years old and ive lived alone/away from my family for years. i think i can make my own choices.
i have a really hard time doing things alone. When mike is around and i can drag him around with me i can conquer the world. When i have a friend or family member doing something with me its ok. When im alone though i cant do anything. i really hate that aspect about me. a friend of mine once told me she moved out of her apartment all by herself. she was telling me how she moved the couch and she did everything. i was completely impressed. i would be so helpless if i didnt always have people around me. i really hate that.
anyway im just bitching because i really had no place to bitch. sorry its so long. if you actually sat through and read this then :thumbsup:
oh yeah and that stupid cupid thing. whoever sent me the cupid thing.. come clean now. its driving me crazy!
Mike and I have to move again. The neighbor called the town on our house and the town has served us a violation of illegal apartment. deja vu all over again. the landlord wants us to stay but we really dont want to deal with this process through the holidays. We believe the outcome will be that we need to get out. So we figured we would rather leave sooner then later.
A lot of good goes along with leaving. However a lot of bad goes along with it too. We will be moving in to his moms house. Its not so bad since she is a pot head and a pretty cool mom, but she seems to think nothing her son does is wrong. Also sucks because his brother luke plays the guitar, drums, and keyboard. Mikes family believes Luke should be able to express himself. This means at 8am he is pounding on his drums making a lot of noise while im trying to sleep. This means sunday mornings i am woken up by the keyboard. The guitar isnt so nosey unless he hooks it up to his amp. Another problem that goes along with this is that his brother John and I dont get along. John is a 19 y/o know it all who talks back to everyone. Problem with this is Mike and his mother tend to be a bit more submissive to john then i am. if john gets in my face i say something to him vs his brother and mother who ignore it. Another problem is grandpa. grandpa lost grandma and he is a miserable old man. a big part of me really loves grandpa. he does mean well but he is mean and bitter and likes to lecture and yell. i guess it goes along with old age. considering his age and the fact that it is technically his house i never know how to react when he yells at me. i dont know what to say or do. should i talk back and explain my side or should i yes him to death? should i possibly say sorry over and over again and try and make him feel bad he is yelling at me? Last problem is the clutter in the house. its really a 4 bedroom house and 6 people will now be living in it. also we have two cats and a dog that we are bringing. mikes family has 7 cats and a dog. the house is going to be so full all the time.
im going to try and make the best out of it. go out whenever i can, save money, enjoy life and most importantly GO BACK TO SCHOOL. my cousin im'd me randomly out of the blue. she is like 15 years older then me. She use to babysit me when i was little. She tells me how im good with animals and kids so i should go to school for that. i dont know what planet she is living on. maybe i enjoyed animals and children when i was 15 but its really not where my head is. she pretends like she knows me when in fact she doesnt. silly second or third or whatever cousin she is. she is actually my moms cousin so whetever that makes her to me. i hate people butting into my life. its my job to live my life its her job to live her life. im 22 years old and ive lived alone/away from my family for years. i think i can make my own choices.
i have a really hard time doing things alone. When mike is around and i can drag him around with me i can conquer the world. When i have a friend or family member doing something with me its ok. When im alone though i cant do anything. i really hate that aspect about me. a friend of mine once told me she moved out of her apartment all by herself. she was telling me how she moved the couch and she did everything. i was completely impressed. i would be so helpless if i didnt always have people around me. i really hate that.
anyway im just bitching because i really had no place to bitch. sorry its so long. if you actually sat through and read this then :thumbsup:
oh yeah and that stupid cupid thing. whoever sent me the cupid thing.. come clean now. its driving me crazy!
