Ballroom Dancing: No Confidence In Myself?

[Amy Loose]

Hi, Im 13 Years old and i do ballroom dancing. i started when i was about 8 and i loved it. i still do it but since i broke up with my partner (girl+girl) i have had no confidence in myself. i just wanna compete. this sounds stupid but thats all i wanna do. i watch videos of other ballroom dancing and i cry because i just wanna be like them. if i play music to do with ballroom dancing i nearly start to cry because i start imagining myself trying to be good. I have no confidence in myself. i think im rubbish. people say im not. all i want now is to do competitions and to have a boy partner. sometimes at dance i just walk out crying because i just wanna be good and i get fustraited. also i think people think im rubbish. like other kids at dance i think theyre looking at me and thinking 'haha shes rubbish' i just wanna prove them wrong. ive spoke to my mum about it and she said she will try sort it out. but nothings happened:'[ What should i do. sorry its so long. it seems like no-one feels the same as me:/