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helenbestrong
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I constantly have a feeling that my back is lacking sth, that my injured side is as weak and unsteady as it could gets....
My story started a few years ago, when I was diagnosed with herniated disc, missed the best timing for initial treatment because of family doc said,"no matter what you do ,it will go away."
So I listened to that God and went on with pain, then one day I couldn't bear it any more and ended up with another doc begging for a MRI.
Then it was this reckless young surgeon who basically ruined my back, my life. I am generally not a very nagetive person but I have to say I was in lousy luck. I never had a day without pain since the surgery for almost five years now. I was 23, now 28, will be most likely in pain for the rest of my life.
It is like this, when I laying in bed on my side, with the injured side on top, I pressed the surgical spot with fingers, compare both sides, I could feel there is a huge dent on the injured side.
Is it just in my mind or sth real?
what is your X-ray look like after micro D? I could see a good piece of bone is gone, with the bone taken, the left bone looks like a deep V with only a little bit left on the top ,almost like the bone is gonna snap because ther was not much left between center bone and the left lamina.
am I psych myself out or what ? because of pain, I can't stop thinking about it. And I could never forget every single word the surgeon said to me to get me into surgery, how he changed his attitude suddenly after surgery is done.
Man, why do medical schools take those smart but without any sense of ethics. What is the difference between them and high skilled
butcher?sometimes not even a good butcher. LOL.
This surgeon basically told me,"if you don't have surgery, you will lose your control over your bowel and bladder." after surgery I found out that was a big flat lie, I was herniated L5-S1, not as human I would lose my bowel control becasue of that. Another surgeon, a personal friend told me that. The reason he would tell me is because he practices in another country. He also lied about the surgery itself. As a layman, I didn't know anything about surgery involved bones. I asked him if the bone he cut would grew back, he asid "yes". If I would have known this is permanant deform, I would never tried surgery before I tried sth else, I NREVER EVER had one day of PT or saw a pain doc, but on his medical record, he lied, " patient had tried conservative treament with no relief" I still don't understand what this referred to, all I had was a ONE TIME visit to the chiropractor.
I was not talked to like what he wrote, he basically scared me into surgery.
All those five years of my precious life, I have spent a lot of time depressing thinking this over and over in pain.
sigh, no relief, and the surgeon is living a hell of a good life......
My story started a few years ago, when I was diagnosed with herniated disc, missed the best timing for initial treatment because of family doc said,"no matter what you do ,it will go away."
So I listened to that God and went on with pain, then one day I couldn't bear it any more and ended up with another doc begging for a MRI.
Then it was this reckless young surgeon who basically ruined my back, my life. I am generally not a very nagetive person but I have to say I was in lousy luck. I never had a day without pain since the surgery for almost five years now. I was 23, now 28, will be most likely in pain for the rest of my life.
It is like this, when I laying in bed on my side, with the injured side on top, I pressed the surgical spot with fingers, compare both sides, I could feel there is a huge dent on the injured side.
Is it just in my mind or sth real?
what is your X-ray look like after micro D? I could see a good piece of bone is gone, with the bone taken, the left bone looks like a deep V with only a little bit left on the top ,almost like the bone is gonna snap because ther was not much left between center bone and the left lamina.
am I psych myself out or what ? because of pain, I can't stop thinking about it. And I could never forget every single word the surgeon said to me to get me into surgery, how he changed his attitude suddenly after surgery is done.
Man, why do medical schools take those smart but without any sense of ethics. What is the difference between them and high skilled
butcher?sometimes not even a good butcher. LOL.
This surgeon basically told me,"if you don't have surgery, you will lose your control over your bowel and bladder." after surgery I found out that was a big flat lie, I was herniated L5-S1, not as human I would lose my bowel control becasue of that. Another surgeon, a personal friend told me that. The reason he would tell me is because he practices in another country. He also lied about the surgery itself. As a layman, I didn't know anything about surgery involved bones. I asked him if the bone he cut would grew back, he asid "yes". If I would have known this is permanant deform, I would never tried surgery before I tried sth else, I NREVER EVER had one day of PT or saw a pain doc, but on his medical record, he lied, " patient had tried conservative treament with no relief" I still don't understand what this referred to, all I had was a ONE TIME visit to the chiropractor.
I was not talked to like what he wrote, he basically scared me into surgery.
All those five years of my precious life, I have spent a lot of time depressing thinking this over and over in pain.
sigh, no relief, and the surgeon is living a hell of a good life......