...CoMpUlSoRy, the rest is ramble)? wel my mom made my found out that i gave my bf a blow job and he fingered me, so she brought me to the cops..they arrested him for sexual assault! and now hes friends are posting status' on myspace about how they miss him... and i miss him so much to... i cnt say shit cuz i dnt want them to burst on me... cuz they thought i coulda prevented it! today i was refered to go to a therapist because the school consellor was overwhellemed by my problems. what im basically askin is :
Will they hurt me? physically or emotionally...
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i made it look like i was the one who started it all, and i threw myself at him and he had no choice... now my mom thinks im a total slut... she brought me to the police to tel them everything, and i lied, then told the truth, knowing that he would always tel them the truth... im takin all the blame, and i really dont give an F what anyone says... because when i told him that hes goin to jail... he said "its ok baby, i love you, and when i get out, we will just have to wait till you're 18, dont be scared baby, i love you, and im not mad" and i was like wow... you know... i told him that he isnt jesus christ.. wtf is wrong with you! (im really down to earth) , how can he say that... from then i new i had to take the blame... wanna save up money to help hes family bail him.. is there even bail for this??
i wanna talk to hes bro about it all, but im afraid hes brother will embarass me infront of hes friends...i dnt know... i want the strength to carry on... im so alone... and so lost... at home all i got is my tears, a teddy bear he gave me, my bible, my diary, my math book he wrote our names in and my bed... now hes friends know.. and they look at me all ****** up!
But the most ridiculos thing is how my mom acts like she is the victim, and even asked me today, if he got baiedl... if she card so much, why do all that... TO TEACH ME A LESSON she says... f*ck that ****
Now he has a record but i want to be with him, and maybe suport him when we get older, if he cant get a job... My mom always told him thaat she would rat him out, but we never thought she would, because he cleans the house alot... and honestly he made me a better person, and i love him alot for that. if it matters at all, im black and from the caribbean, he is white but not trailer trash. i would show a picture, but he deleted everything off myspace cause before my mom called the cops we decided to stay away from each other. i feel it was my fault.. and i want to take responisbility for it all... cause i could of done some, maybe i did to much, maybe im crazy... or just crazy in love... if my tear drops could reverse my life by a minute, we would of never met!
Will they hurt me? physically or emotionally...
RAMBLE^ RAMBLE**** MORE RAMBLE!! YOU DONT HAVE TO READ******
i made it look like i was the one who started it all, and i threw myself at him and he had no choice... now my mom thinks im a total slut... she brought me to the police to tel them everything, and i lied, then told the truth, knowing that he would always tel them the truth... im takin all the blame, and i really dont give an F what anyone says... because when i told him that hes goin to jail... he said "its ok baby, i love you, and when i get out, we will just have to wait till you're 18, dont be scared baby, i love you, and im not mad" and i was like wow... you know... i told him that he isnt jesus christ.. wtf is wrong with you! (im really down to earth) , how can he say that... from then i new i had to take the blame... wanna save up money to help hes family bail him.. is there even bail for this??
i wanna talk to hes bro about it all, but im afraid hes brother will embarass me infront of hes friends...i dnt know... i want the strength to carry on... im so alone... and so lost... at home all i got is my tears, a teddy bear he gave me, my bible, my diary, my math book he wrote our names in and my bed... now hes friends know.. and they look at me all ****** up!
But the most ridiculos thing is how my mom acts like she is the victim, and even asked me today, if he got baiedl... if she card so much, why do all that... TO TEACH ME A LESSON she says... f*ck that ****
Now he has a record but i want to be with him, and maybe suport him when we get older, if he cant get a job... My mom always told him thaat she would rat him out, but we never thought she would, because he cleans the house alot... and honestly he made me a better person, and i love him alot for that. if it matters at all, im black and from the caribbean, he is white but not trailer trash. i would show a picture, but he deleted everything off myspace cause before my mom called the cops we decided to stay away from each other. i feel it was my fault.. and i want to take responisbility for it all... cause i could of done some, maybe i did to much, maybe im crazy... or just crazy in love... if my tear drops could reverse my life by a minute, we would of never met!