Are these tests for me? Why do I roller-coaster through this?

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5 years ago, I was a different person. I was in an unhappy marriage, I was overweight, I was in a job that I knew I'd never grow, I was living withi my mother who is very very crul to me (financial problems) and my ex-husband moved to a big city to make more money and get us out of the situation we were in. I think at that point I was severly depressed or spiritually lost or both because I was unhappy.

I took charge of my life.

We moved to the big city, I got a divorce, I lost a lot of weight, I doubled my salary and love my career and my kids are happy and healthy since we handled the divorce delitcately.

I dated and met someone and it was a disater. I changed more of myself more to make sure I didn't find someone like him, then I met Mr. wonderful. We dated for a year, took a break for a few months, then dated another, then broke up again. I became close to church and have been so happy with church/faith.

Lately though, I've been through a few things and I felt like I wasn't close to church/faith anymore. I stopped going to choir practice and missed a couple of Sundays. I started going again last week and felt better but I feel I need more.

My life has changed so much in the past five years! I can't tell if these are all tests or am I depressed?

I want to be close to God again and happy! I miss it so much! I long for it.

How can I possibly reconnect? I feel lost.
 
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