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I'm a 13 year old British female. For around a year I have been experiencing extreme mood swings, when they first started I thought it was nothing out of the ordinary as my friends were having mild mood swings like all teenagers do. But after a few months I noticed a difference between us, their mood swings lasted a couple of hours maybe even less, but mine can vary from lasting between about 12hours to 5 or 6 weeks of the same mood. The moods also seem to be stronger than my friends mixing between extreme highs and extreme lows with some periods of time between the two when i feel normal.
When i feel like i'm on a high my thoughts race, i find it hard to concentrate, i feel more active, i dont get tired as easy, i dont feel like i need to eat or sleep as much, i get very giggly silly and immature (i normally i act quite mature for my age) and i often change topics of conversations vey quickly
When i am on a low i feel constantly tired, i eat more, have thoughts or death and suicide, get quite moody and antisocial, i withdraw myself from my friends, like being on my own (normally i like being in a big group) cry for no apparent reason, or over a very small thing, i loathe myself and think im a waste of space and lately i have started it scratch my arms with things like rulers just enough to break the skin and cause a little pain but not enough to make it bleed (so i dont know if this counts as "cutting") and occasionaly bang my head (hard) against a wall
When i am between moods i am nothing like either of these i can be serious if i want to and have a laugh aswell but not like the things i described above, i would love to hear any answers especially form any phsicyatrists (sorry about the spelling) and doctors that both know about mental health as i suspect this could possibly be some sort of depression but i dont know what kind because i have never heard of a depression with highs. I would also like to here from anyone that thinks they know what this is beacause they have had these things happen to them and have been diagnosed with something.
p.s i have never smoked, done drugs or drank alcahol.
Thank you so much everyone that replies because whatever is wrong with me is affecting my life badly.
oh and by the way i dont think it is puberty because ive asked my friends and none of them have had suicidal thoughts and bang their heads against walls. plus i was an early developer my breasts were fully developed about 2 years ago since ive been in the same bra size since ten and my periods become regular about 3 years ago and i havent grown (height) for around a year
hi again i just want to say how grateful i am to all of you the responses so far have been really useful and thank you all for not just saying i am an idiot whiney tennager who needs to get a grip on herself, you have all been so kind and i am definatley thinking about asking my teacher if she can set up a counselling session with my school counsellor but please everyone elses keep answering because i would like to get as many opinions as possible. Once more just thank you because i have asked people about this before and their answers have been no where near as informative.
could i also add that although i have had thoughts about suicide i have never actually tried to kill myself. and can anyone explain why i might be scratching my arms and banging my head because i cannot think of anything, my family love me and they often show they love me, and i love them very deeply too, i have a great circle of friends who i care about and im sure they care about me, and i consider myself as a good student. I have everything going for me so i would like to know why i could be harming myself.
I'm a 13 year old British female. For around a year I have been experiencing extreme mood swings, when they first started I thought it was nothing out of the ordinary as my friends were having mild mood swings like all teenagers do. But after a few months I noticed a difference between us, their mood swings lasted a couple of hours maybe even less, but mine can vary from lasting between about 12hours to 5 or 6 weeks of the same mood. The moods also seem to be stronger than my friends mixing between extreme highs and extreme lows with some periods of time between the two when i feel normal.
When i feel like i'm on a high my thoughts race, i find it hard to concentrate, i feel more active, i dont get tired as easy, i dont feel like i need to eat or sleep as much, i get very giggly silly and immature (i normally i act quite mature for my age) and i often change topics of conversations vey quickly
When i am on a low i feel constantly tired, i eat more, have thoughts or death and suicide, get quite moody and antisocial, i withdraw myself from my friends, like being on my own (normally i like being in a big group) cry for no apparent reason, or over a very small thing, i loathe myself and think im a waste of space and lately i have started it scratch my arms with things like rulers just enough to break the skin and cause a little pain but not enough to make it bleed (so i dont know if this counts as "cutting") and occasionaly bang my head (hard) against a wall
When i am between moods i am nothing like either of these i can be serious if i want to and have a laugh aswell but not like the things i described above, i would love to hear any answers especially form any phsicyatrists (sorry about the spelling) and doctors that both know about mental health as i suspect this could possibly be some sort of depression but i dont know what kind because i have never heard of a depression with highs. I would also like to here from anyone that thinks they know what this is beacause they have had these things happen to them and have been diagnosed with something.
p.s i have never smoked, done drugs or drank alcahol.
Thank you so much everyone that replies because whatever is wrong with me is affecting my life badly.
oh and by the way i dont think it is puberty because ive asked my friends and none of them have had suicidal thoughts and bang their heads against walls. plus i was an early developer my breasts were fully developed about 2 years ago since ive been in the same bra size since ten and my periods become regular about 3 years ago and i havent grown (height) for around a year
hi again i just want to say how grateful i am to all of you the responses so far have been really useful and thank you all for not just saying i am an idiot whiney tennager who needs to get a grip on herself, you have all been so kind and i am definatley thinking about asking my teacher if she can set up a counselling session with my school counsellor but please everyone elses keep answering because i would like to get as many opinions as possible. Once more just thank you because i have asked people about this before and their answers have been no where near as informative.
could i also add that although i have had thoughts about suicide i have never actually tried to kill myself. and can anyone explain why i might be scratching my arms and banging my head because i cannot think of anything, my family love me and they often show they love me, and i love them very deeply too, i have a great circle of friends who i care about and im sure they care about me, and i consider myself as a good student. I have everything going for me so i would like to know why i could be harming myself.