being awkward now..? so yesterday i went to the girls house to talk about our relationship problems in my car, she's been keeping me waiting for a month now, and she told me to wait a bit longer for our relationship. we've been talking alot ever since the summer and hanging out a lot too (about 7 months now and we've really gotten close, and so close that we've started liking each other). the past month that she kept me waiting, things started to become strange. she would talk to me a bit less and randomly stop talking, and finally i had enough and i had to find out what was going on. here's what happened last night, well most of it anyways.
she didn't really give me much of an explanation on anything, she doesn't even know how she feels anymore.
and i asked if she would ever give me a chance and she was like i don't know, no because i don't even know yet.
i asked her if she could even see us in a relationship and she's like i don't know because of our communication levels.
i asked her if she even cared and shes like yeah of course i do (but i don't really see it cause i asked her why she didn't tell me about how her feelings change and left me hanging for the longest time and she said i was gonna tell you eventually but i didn't even know if i even felt that way, i don't know. and i had to confront her to get her to tell me).
she said about the planning. we both don't like to plan, but i said i wanted to get better and she wasn't even giving me the chance to.
she asked me how did i not know that she liked me and i said "well you never really showed it" (were both shy people :/) and i asked her the question as well, i said when i got back from my vacation i got you that gift, because i realized that i like you and i missed you so i had to get it. she told me no ...
she told me i know this isn't fair to you and i said i know it's not and then she told me i'd understand if you just moved on, but i said "but what if i wanted to wait for you? (just to see what she would say) and she told me "if i was in your shoes i would just move on, i wouldn't wait becasue that's just stupid and not logical." i said i know it's not fair to me. but i don't want to leave things unanswered, i want to know. like i don't want to question myself in the future of what could have been and what couldn't have right... and she said i was acting like a ***** becasue i was asking her so much questions and that i'd wait for her regaradless of how we would end up.
and then it was silent after that and i didn't know what else to do ot say. so i just said: "i'll just let you figure out your feelings then." and that was it, i haven't talked to her today and i'm starting to think i really did act like a ***** and i'm thinking of apologizing but at the same time, i don't want to because she deserves it for not telling me anything on the first place. but if i do decide to apologize, i don't know what i should do.. i don't know if a gift is too much or what i should buy or make and write a note. i want to talk to her but, i don't know if things are gonna be awkward or what to say to start our conversations anymore. i don't know what to do, i have never been in a situation like this before. what would you do? :S
sorry if this is too long! i just need personal opinions and help! thanks!
oh and i asked her "so you really don't like me anymore right?" she said "who said i don't like you anymore?"
this makes it even more confusing!
her feelings are in between, and i don't get how that works.. :S
she didn't really give me much of an explanation on anything, she doesn't even know how she feels anymore.
and i asked if she would ever give me a chance and she was like i don't know, no because i don't even know yet.
i asked her if she could even see us in a relationship and she's like i don't know because of our communication levels.
i asked her if she even cared and shes like yeah of course i do (but i don't really see it cause i asked her why she didn't tell me about how her feelings change and left me hanging for the longest time and she said i was gonna tell you eventually but i didn't even know if i even felt that way, i don't know. and i had to confront her to get her to tell me).
she said about the planning. we both don't like to plan, but i said i wanted to get better and she wasn't even giving me the chance to.
she asked me how did i not know that she liked me and i said "well you never really showed it" (were both shy people :/) and i asked her the question as well, i said when i got back from my vacation i got you that gift, because i realized that i like you and i missed you so i had to get it. she told me no ...
she told me i know this isn't fair to you and i said i know it's not and then she told me i'd understand if you just moved on, but i said "but what if i wanted to wait for you? (just to see what she would say) and she told me "if i was in your shoes i would just move on, i wouldn't wait becasue that's just stupid and not logical." i said i know it's not fair to me. but i don't want to leave things unanswered, i want to know. like i don't want to question myself in the future of what could have been and what couldn't have right... and she said i was acting like a ***** becasue i was asking her so much questions and that i'd wait for her regaradless of how we would end up.
and then it was silent after that and i didn't know what else to do ot say. so i just said: "i'll just let you figure out your feelings then." and that was it, i haven't talked to her today and i'm starting to think i really did act like a ***** and i'm thinking of apologizing but at the same time, i don't want to because she deserves it for not telling me anything on the first place. but if i do decide to apologize, i don't know what i should do.. i don't know if a gift is too much or what i should buy or make and write a note. i want to talk to her but, i don't know if things are gonna be awkward or what to say to start our conversations anymore. i don't know what to do, i have never been in a situation like this before. what would you do? :S
sorry if this is too long! i just need personal opinions and help! thanks!
oh and i asked her "so you really don't like me anymore right?" she said "who said i don't like you anymore?"
this makes it even more confusing!
her feelings are in between, and i don't get how that works.. :S