I am married to a Marine who is deployed yet again. He has been AD a LONG time. He is over 11 years older than me and I am 25. I am nothing but loyal and faithful to him while he is deployed. However, I feel like I don’t fit in with this lifestyle sometimes. I look around and see these women that are these selfless, overzealous cheerleaders for the USMC and their husbands. I don’t walk around with Marine Corps garb on, do not have my car decked out in stickers/magnets and I do not belong to any wives organizations. I actually feel guilty at times because I am not one of these women saying “My husband is my hero” or “My husband fights for your freedom”. I just can't stomach that crap......
I am too busy working on my MBA because I was insistent that I was not going to let my husband’s duty station determine my life or lack of. It is just stressful that I am limited in my options for employment and education due to my husband’s job. I feel like I am in a crisis right now of my life goals and I feel weighed down. I am nothing but supportive, loving and here 24-7 for contact with him on deployment. I have never left his side, yet I feel like he has left my side when he deployed on me again, this time for over a year.
Am I the only wife out there who has had issues dealing with the role that you are supposed to be selfless and give up your aspirations? I feel guilty at times that I am not acting like a damn fool like some of these wives are blindly supporting and jumping up and down about their husbands jobs. Am I realistic in knowing that there is more to me than just being a military wife, or what? I just feel lost right now with no one to talk to.
I want so much in my life for me and my husband and it’s hard to build that around the military. I am proud of him, but I wonder what I can do to feel more upbeat about this dumb deployment? I try to let him not see the depressed stressed out side, but again it’s hard. Why do I have to be perfectly happy while he is gone? Why can’t a wife be depressed or stressed? Sorry for rambling….it is just I am really alone in this situation.
I am too busy working on my MBA because I was insistent that I was not going to let my husband’s duty station determine my life or lack of. It is just stressful that I am limited in my options for employment and education due to my husband’s job. I feel like I am in a crisis right now of my life goals and I feel weighed down. I am nothing but supportive, loving and here 24-7 for contact with him on deployment. I have never left his side, yet I feel like he has left my side when he deployed on me again, this time for over a year.
Am I the only wife out there who has had issues dealing with the role that you are supposed to be selfless and give up your aspirations? I feel guilty at times that I am not acting like a damn fool like some of these wives are blindly supporting and jumping up and down about their husbands jobs. Am I realistic in knowing that there is more to me than just being a military wife, or what? I just feel lost right now with no one to talk to.
I want so much in my life for me and my husband and it’s hard to build that around the military. I am proud of him, but I wonder what I can do to feel more upbeat about this dumb deployment? I try to let him not see the depressed stressed out side, but again it’s hard. Why do I have to be perfectly happy while he is gone? Why can’t a wife be depressed or stressed? Sorry for rambling….it is just I am really alone in this situation.