Anxiety/Worries

[dukexcobbler]

So I have been experiencing this for a few months now. It all started around Christmas of 2009. I was going along in life just fine. Then, my brother's fiancee passed away. It didn't really have any emotional effect on me, as I wasn't extremely close to her or anything. About a week later, I began to feel pains in my chest and got super scared because I thought I was having a heart attack or something. I must mention that I am 21 and have no history of health issues, but I did once get told I had a heart murmur, which proved to be nothing after an echocardiogram. That was a long time ago. Anyway, I was getting these bad chest pains. I couldn't sleep cause I was super scared. Then, a few weeks later, I began to get headaches and started feeling dizzy and a bit weak constantly. So I went to the doctor with my concerns. He said it didn't sound serious, but we took blood tests, had a chest xray/EKG, urine test. Then on top of that, I went to the eye doctor, who said everything seemed totally fine, except my left eye was a tiny bit off visually. We fixed this with a prescription, but I must also mention that I have had a blurry left eye for my whole life. The eye doctor said this had nothing to do with my headaches/dizziness. So I was really concerned now. I started to worry immediately that I had a brain tumor. First thought. So, I went back to the doctor, who said my blood tests and urine and chest xray and EKG all came back perfectly fine. I told him my concern, he had me do a basic balance/ walking test, said it was fine, and asked if I thought a CT scan would ease my mind. I said yes, naturally. So I went and got it done. Worried for the next week, until I went in, because "he wanted to see me about the scan" said the nurse. This scared the crap out of me. Nonetheless, I had to go in. He came in and said, "Your CT scan came back perfectly normal, no tumors or anything. But they did see some stuff in the sinus." So he told me it would pass sooner or later, but if it got severe, to come in and get some more help on it. Lately, I have been feeling very tired, and pressure-headed. No severe headaches, but still, annoying. And I have felt, for these past 3 months, depersonalization. I feel like I do not exist....I feel like nothing is the same anymore, I'm not excited about things as much anymore. I am super sad some mornings, and feel like crying, and like I'm doomed to die a horrible death soon. I'm on here because I am looking for answers....is this Anxiety that I am feeling? If my Ct scan came back normal along with all my other tests, does that leave me anything to worry about? The doctor wouldn't just do nothing if he saw something right? I need that reassurance. I am seeing a psychologist who is convinced it is anxiety. Would medication help me? Zoloft is what my psychologist recommended, since it is a mild anti-depressant. Will it help with my issues? Will the symptoms lessen with seeing my psychologist and taking Zoloft? I am hoping that the depersonalization will lessen with the meRAB as well. Please, if you have any answers for me, i would love to hear them....much love.

 

[Leo123]

Duke,

I can otally relate to everything you are saying.

First off is don't let those doctors start you off on the meRAB. Its a horrible cycle and you will never be the same that is my opnion.

You sound like a young healthy guy who is just going through some emotional issues. (Nothing severe enough i my opnion to warrant starting you off a cycle of meRAB that mess with your brains chemistry) Keep your mind and body as natural as possible that is best piece of advice I can offer you to start with.

Secondly bro, yes I can totally relate to everything you are going through. I personally think this is a process some of us go through as we start turning into men and realize that things are starting to change. We over think things and really start making a whole mess of things in our minRAB because I think we are over thinkers.

Which Beleive it or not is a good thing and a blessing in my opnion, and eventually I hope you find you are way out of the feelings you are going through now and just realize that you are man and that you just need to live life the best you can and enjoy each day for the moment.

When these feelings started happening to me, I enentually came to the conclusion that it was God finding me and waking me up to his reality. That I'm not in control and that God is in control and it was kind of scary. But it also helped me turn to the Lord and put my faith in something.

Anyways it sounRAB like you are a good guy and beleive me life is so good and so precious and I thank God for everday that I'm alive. Your 21 do your best to enjoy life and live everyday to its fullest. Try not to waiste your time thinking about all sorts of health probelms you may or may not have. Just ackowledge you live in the LorRAB world and he is in control ask him for faith, health and guidance and he will show you the way.

Good Luck - P.S. I hope I did not offend anybody in anyway I;m just saying I experienced the same feeling as Duke did and I know those feeling were from God calling me to his attention and waking me up to the fact that I;m not in control of this world and it was kind of scary feeling (actually very frightning) to feel that loss of control, I used to think that I was invinsible I could do whatever I wanted and I would live forever and nothing will happen to me and the second I realized this was not true was a very scary experience.

I think that is some of what you are going through in your life right now. And now you have a choice of two roaRAB you can go down. You can get on the meRAB and say to yourself that this is a disease of my mind and there is nothing I can do or you can>>>>?

Again just my experience and I hope some of what I had to share will touch you in a positive way.

God Bless.

 

[dukexcobbler]

thank you so much! Ya, I have been definitely questioning whether to get on the meRAB or not. probably won't. I definitely need something for these pressure headaches though. i wake up with one pretty much every morning. bleh. But yeah, I'm working on it as naturally as I can, telling my body it's healthy (Because the doctor says so). Thank God for realizations, cause I know he has something in this for me. again, thank you so much!