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SpiralNeko
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Right now I feel the lowest I have ever felt in my life. I think I've always had some kind of anxiety problem. Back when I was 12 I had to end up going to a very small school of less then 30 students because I couldn't cope with the size and amount of people in a regular high school. Back then I felt dizzy, ill, burst into tears and sometimes was even physically ill even at the thought of going to a large high school.
Now I've finished school and have been accpeted into Tafe, but all those feelings came rushing back and it was even worse this time round. I thought perhaps it was just that I was young and scared all those years ago but now I think it's something more. I can't even describe how ashamed and dissapointed in myself that it's happened again.
When I think about it I realised that my problem was never actually fixed, it was only catered to. So how do I get help? I don't know how I can even explain it to my parents so far they just think I'm a little nervous. I don't think I could go to Tafe the way I am and I think sorting this out is my nuraber one priority. Otherwise I'll never be able to get a job or meet new people.
Now I've finished school and have been accpeted into Tafe, but all those feelings came rushing back and it was even worse this time round. I thought perhaps it was just that I was young and scared all those years ago but now I think it's something more. I can't even describe how ashamed and dissapointed in myself that it's happened again.
When I think about it I realised that my problem was never actually fixed, it was only catered to. So how do I get help? I don't know how I can even explain it to my parents so far they just think I'm a little nervous. I don't think I could go to Tafe the way I am and I think sorting this out is my nuraber one priority. Otherwise I'll never be able to get a job or meet new people.