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RUDMAN
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I've been suffering with an eating disorder for years. For quite some time I was very thin but now my weight is healthy. So many people have commented about my weight gain which I've hated. I've always worried about what other people think about me and since my weight gain this has escalated. I thought I was just being paranoid that people judge me all the time, but now I have proof that people do look at me and make judgements. I've lost confidence and hate my new figure. I hate leaving my flat also now, but the one thing I do to help myself, is to go swimming. Every single week before I go, I turn into a nervous wreck. Before I go I get flooRAB of negative thoughts, my weight doubles 'in my mind'. Every person I meet there I find myself detecting what they are thinking e.g. 'She's put on more weight' 'She's a strange girl'. I feel all eyes are on me. It's MENTAL! Me, thinking that I am the centre of attention. My partner tells me that I need to get thicker skin, I do I guess, but how? I really don't want to give up my swimming. Excuse all the rarabling! PROBLEM -WORRYING ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME ALL THE TIME -Can anybody out there give me any tips or advice regarding this?