Cecily Anne
New member
Hi everyone, this has been bothering me for a while now. I am a 21 year old female. I've noticed that ever since about Sophomore year of HS, every guy I've been attracted to has turned out to be gay. It usually happens that I'm attracted to them first, then they come out of the closet. Its to the point where if I'm attracted to them, they're probably gay. Even guys that I crushed on way back in 7th grade have just recently come out of the closet. What the hell is wrong with me?
I barely get along with straight guys, they're just so dry and one track minded. The only straight men I like are at least 15 years older than me or already married.
Here are some details: I was raised by a single mom who has a strong dislike for men (but would never admit to it). I was sexually molested multiple times as a kid by an older male cousin and by a female babysitter. The idea of sex makes me angry, the idea of being someone physical dumping ground makes me sick, I think sex was terribly designed...I get physically ill when I do anything past kissing. So clearly I have issues. Anyone have some insight into why I'm only attracted to gay men and older men? and what I could do to change my unhealthy mindset about sex (please do not suggest masturbating, in my case it doesn't help).
I barely get along with straight guys, they're just so dry and one track minded. The only straight men I like are at least 15 years older than me or already married.
Here are some details: I was raised by a single mom who has a strong dislike for men (but would never admit to it). I was sexually molested multiple times as a kid by an older male cousin and by a female babysitter. The idea of sex makes me angry, the idea of being someone physical dumping ground makes me sick, I think sex was terribly designed...I get physically ill when I do anything past kissing. So clearly I have issues. Anyone have some insight into why I'm only attracted to gay men and older men? and what I could do to change my unhealthy mindset about sex (please do not suggest masturbating, in my case it doesn't help).