HulaHoopDeeDoop
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I know I need to go to a doctor to be really diagnosed, but people on YA seem.to think I have OCD due to these symptoms. Is it possible to not have OCD and these are just personality quirks, or is it unlikely?
I no longer drink from someone else's drink, or allowanyone to drink from mine, not even my dad or sister or anyonE I no longer eat food other people have touched or eaten If I see a hair in my food I stop eating the food, and whenever I eat I am always looking for hair in my food If food falls onto the floor, or table, or any other surface, no matter how clean, I cannot eat it For a while I used so much hand sanitizer my hands dried out and turned red, and my knuckleswere bone white from being so dry. I have to force myself to throw away clothing I know I don't wear or don't fit in, and simply cannot throw away boxes from electronics and such because I feel I may need them someday I have fears of accidently hurting someone, and imagine how I could hurt someone Im not suicidal and I love my life, but I have imagined odd ways to die/get injured I have said phases or chanted formulas or encouraging words in my mind while trying to focus especially on math, and am unable to stop the chanting I make lists for EVERYTHING but they are small lists, usually... I play games by blinking when driving over cracks in the road or drive past light poles I have begun to obsess over these quirks researching them and taking all sorts of online tests, asking YA tons of questions, but I never feel I have enough info Last night I was imaging falling into mud and cow poop, and I began shuddering and I had to open my eyes and calm down a bit I have begun to wash my hands, to the point that my 10yr old brother asked why I wash them so much Yesterday, my bathroom looked a bit gross, and usually I would have just walked away, because I HATE cleaning the bathroom, but I got disinfectant spray and windex, and happily cleaned the bathroom
I no longer drink from someone else's drink, or allowanyone to drink from mine, not even my dad or sister or anyonE I no longer eat food other people have touched or eaten If I see a hair in my food I stop eating the food, and whenever I eat I am always looking for hair in my food If food falls onto the floor, or table, or any other surface, no matter how clean, I cannot eat it For a while I used so much hand sanitizer my hands dried out and turned red, and my knuckleswere bone white from being so dry. I have to force myself to throw away clothing I know I don't wear or don't fit in, and simply cannot throw away boxes from electronics and such because I feel I may need them someday I have fears of accidently hurting someone, and imagine how I could hurt someone Im not suicidal and I love my life, but I have imagined odd ways to die/get injured I have said phases or chanted formulas or encouraging words in my mind while trying to focus especially on math, and am unable to stop the chanting I make lists for EVERYTHING but they are small lists, usually... I play games by blinking when driving over cracks in the road or drive past light poles I have begun to obsess over these quirks researching them and taking all sorts of online tests, asking YA tons of questions, but I never feel I have enough info Last night I was imaging falling into mud and cow poop, and I began shuddering and I had to open my eyes and calm down a bit I have begun to wash my hands, to the point that my 10yr old brother asked why I wash them so much Yesterday, my bathroom looked a bit gross, and usually I would have just walked away, because I HATE cleaning the bathroom, but I got disinfectant spray and windex, and happily cleaned the bathroom