nikluvscorb
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Recently I decided to move to a different state, but then I changed my mind. I want to know if i'm making the best decision staying?
I live in Indiana, in a very small town where jobs are impossible to find (you are lucky if McDonalds is hiring!) A lot of people I hang around with are always telling me that I act like i'm better than them. I don't know if there joking or what, but just because I talk about leaving here (which hardly anyone does) and going to a big city and starting a future, i think Im better than them. I hate it here in my town. Everyone is into drugs. They have terrible drugs busts all the time here. And if you're like me, someone who doesn't smoke, drink, do drugs, party, and focused on the future, you are labeled a loser and you hardly have any friends. I don't have many friends and those I do have, I only text them, they dont want to hang out with me because i'm a loser, I don't have a boyfriend and have never had one even though im 21 years old, and I'm not close to any of my family (except for my mom).
I am currently in college getting a degree in English. I really want to work in a magazine. But I plan on going to school for another degree, maybe psychology. I want a second degree because I know it will be hard to find a job in a magazine so this is gonna be my back up plan.
I'm an only child and live with my mom and Im close to my mom too. I have a chihuahua so her being happy is important to me. The people around me is always telling me that I will never amount to anything because no one in my family has a degree and has never moved out of Indiana. I'm always hearing negative crap and I get sick of it and really upsets me.
My dream has always been to move to New York or California, but I don't have a lot of money. But really, I just want to get out of Indiana. Just the money I will get from student loans, financial aid, grants, and scholarships. But I was planning on finding a job in the city before I moved, when I was moving.
The reason why I changed my mind is because I got tired of everyone telling me that I was making a stupid decision. Like one time when I went to the place I used to work at (I had to quit because they wouldn't let me off for school, plus I was getting harrassed by an older coworker) and they said they heard I wasn't thinking about moving away and when I told them yes. They told me not to do it that it was a mistake since I was moving by myself to a place I dont know anyone, I told them my mom wouldn't come with me and they said thats because your mom doesn't want to go. This really upset me. So my feelings dont count? Am I supposed to live somewhere the rest of my life because my mom doesn't want to move? I dont think this is fair. I didn't ask to live here. I felt like telling them well I dont want to work in a grocery store, minimum wage, hating it, barely making it for the rest of my life. Instead I said that I had to move to one of those places because thats where the places are for the jobs i wanted.
So I want to know.... am I making a good choice staying in Indiana or should I move??? I was thinking about waiting a year to decide. So if I should move, when do you think I should???
I live in Indiana, in a very small town where jobs are impossible to find (you are lucky if McDonalds is hiring!) A lot of people I hang around with are always telling me that I act like i'm better than them. I don't know if there joking or what, but just because I talk about leaving here (which hardly anyone does) and going to a big city and starting a future, i think Im better than them. I hate it here in my town. Everyone is into drugs. They have terrible drugs busts all the time here. And if you're like me, someone who doesn't smoke, drink, do drugs, party, and focused on the future, you are labeled a loser and you hardly have any friends. I don't have many friends and those I do have, I only text them, they dont want to hang out with me because i'm a loser, I don't have a boyfriend and have never had one even though im 21 years old, and I'm not close to any of my family (except for my mom).
I am currently in college getting a degree in English. I really want to work in a magazine. But I plan on going to school for another degree, maybe psychology. I want a second degree because I know it will be hard to find a job in a magazine so this is gonna be my back up plan.
I'm an only child and live with my mom and Im close to my mom too. I have a chihuahua so her being happy is important to me. The people around me is always telling me that I will never amount to anything because no one in my family has a degree and has never moved out of Indiana. I'm always hearing negative crap and I get sick of it and really upsets me.
My dream has always been to move to New York or California, but I don't have a lot of money. But really, I just want to get out of Indiana. Just the money I will get from student loans, financial aid, grants, and scholarships. But I was planning on finding a job in the city before I moved, when I was moving.
The reason why I changed my mind is because I got tired of everyone telling me that I was making a stupid decision. Like one time when I went to the place I used to work at (I had to quit because they wouldn't let me off for school, plus I was getting harrassed by an older coworker) and they said they heard I wasn't thinking about moving away and when I told them yes. They told me not to do it that it was a mistake since I was moving by myself to a place I dont know anyone, I told them my mom wouldn't come with me and they said thats because your mom doesn't want to go. This really upset me. So my feelings dont count? Am I supposed to live somewhere the rest of my life because my mom doesn't want to move? I dont think this is fair. I didn't ask to live here. I felt like telling them well I dont want to work in a grocery store, minimum wage, hating it, barely making it for the rest of my life. Instead I said that I had to move to one of those places because thats where the places are for the jobs i wanted.
So I want to know.... am I making a good choice staying in Indiana or should I move??? I was thinking about waiting a year to decide. So if I should move, when do you think I should???