no this isnt a joke . this girl lead me on for months almost a year, she flirted, filled my head with lies, and played numerous mind games. we were together for a month and two weeks before she ended it. she was interested in other guys. my "friends". 
. i feel like im not worth shit. and that im not capable of being loved. i've lost 40 pounds in the last few months because i was stressed about her. my grades dropped and i turned my back on my family. im a senior in high school. dont really have any real friends. not socially accepted, im not "cool" and my family is basically poor . i feel used and unwanted. i understand that somewhere in the world someone has it worse off than me. but , im me . . . how do i get happier? is it even possible? i feel like smoking a pound of weed and drinking myself into a coma. and i dont drink or smoke.
. i feel like im not worth shit. and that im not capable of being loved. i've lost 40 pounds in the last few months because i was stressed about her. my grades dropped and i turned my back on my family. im a senior in high school. dont really have any real friends. not socially accepted, im not "cool" and my family is basically poor . i feel used and unwanted. i understand that somewhere in the world someone has it worse off than me. but , im me . . . how do i get happier? is it even possible? i feel like smoking a pound of weed and drinking myself into a coma. and i dont drink or smoke.