I'm 16(male) and I have a best friend( also male ) and we are both straight, but I think I'm in love with him, we are like brothers and we always have taken care of each other, I have always been there for him and he has always been there for me, and now I feel an extreme love for him. I know that he is also in love with me and he is always trying to spend time with me. A few months ago I got injured and had to go to the hospital and he was the one that was always there with me( my family also came but they don't care about me that much. ) He also took me to his house to take care of me, the more time I spend with him the more I love him, why do I feel this way if I'm straight? I know he feels the same way about me, I have helped him a lot of times before, but he is also straight.
Now I'm fully recovered and we have just become roomates at school. It was our first night as roommates and suddenly he told me he had to tell me something, that if we were going to be roommates that he wasn't going to be able to hold it in, and he told me he loved me, I already knew but that just made me love him even more, I also told him I loved him and to my surprise it looked like he also already knew! We both talked about it, I told him that I was straight but that he is the only other guy I've fallen in love with and he said the exact same thing, and we both told each other we don't know how it feels to kiss another guy and we agreed to kiss each other( but just a little kiss ) but we ended up making out, we stoped for a minute but then continued to make out, then he started to take my shirt off, I asked him what he was doing and told him we need to talk about this( even though I also wanted to take his shirt off ) we both agreed to make out with our shirts off but that that was as far as it goes, we agreed never to get naked and have sex because we both thought it was going to far and that it is gay and gross, but we still like to make out shirtless and feel each other's bodies and cuddle. It is not just sexual attraction, I love him for who he is, his personality, how he was always there for me and I'm sure he feels the same way.
Now these are my 2 questions:
1.Am I gay if Im in love with him ( both love and attraction ) but I don't like other guys, ever, he is the only guy I have ever loved? Is it possible to be gay for one person?
2. Am I gay if I make out with him shirtless( with shorts or pants on, ALWAYS ) but don't want to have sex with him?
Now I'm fully recovered and we have just become roomates at school. It was our first night as roommates and suddenly he told me he had to tell me something, that if we were going to be roommates that he wasn't going to be able to hold it in, and he told me he loved me, I already knew but that just made me love him even more, I also told him I loved him and to my surprise it looked like he also already knew! We both talked about it, I told him that I was straight but that he is the only other guy I've fallen in love with and he said the exact same thing, and we both told each other we don't know how it feels to kiss another guy and we agreed to kiss each other( but just a little kiss ) but we ended up making out, we stoped for a minute but then continued to make out, then he started to take my shirt off, I asked him what he was doing and told him we need to talk about this( even though I also wanted to take his shirt off ) we both agreed to make out with our shirts off but that that was as far as it goes, we agreed never to get naked and have sex because we both thought it was going to far and that it is gay and gross, but we still like to make out shirtless and feel each other's bodies and cuddle. It is not just sexual attraction, I love him for who he is, his personality, how he was always there for me and I'm sure he feels the same way.
Now these are my 2 questions:
1.Am I gay if Im in love with him ( both love and attraction ) but I don't like other guys, ever, he is the only guy I have ever loved? Is it possible to be gay for one person?
2. Am I gay if I make out with him shirtless( with shorts or pants on, ALWAYS ) but don't want to have sex with him?