Im a naturally happy person. i always have been. but lately im not. i feel like there a half of me thats happy and loving and wants to give everyone a hug. im so happy when im her.
the other half is a abusive bitch and i feel like im being controlled by this other person. it just started after my boyfriend broke my heart and i moved to a new school. im not even mad at him so i dont think thats why im like this. i need help. i hit people over the smallest things and then im like why did i do that??? i feel like someone else is taking me over. i dont even notice its happening until ive done or said something i would never normally do and then its too late. sometimes this person controls me for days. this isnt me. ive lost friends because of this. help me please what does this sound like to you? ive suspected for a long time that im bipolar but my mom refuses to let me get medication. what the hell do i do? i hate myself and im just at a dead end here.
btw going to a doctor is out of the question seeing as my mom refuses to admit somethings wrong with me.
the other half is a abusive bitch and i feel like im being controlled by this other person. it just started after my boyfriend broke my heart and i moved to a new school. im not even mad at him so i dont think thats why im like this. i need help. i hit people over the smallest things and then im like why did i do that??? i feel like someone else is taking me over. i dont even notice its happening until ive done or said something i would never normally do and then its too late. sometimes this person controls me for days. this isnt me. ive lost friends because of this. help me please what does this sound like to you? ive suspected for a long time that im bipolar but my mom refuses to let me get medication. what the hell do i do? i hate myself and im just at a dead end here.
btw going to a doctor is out of the question seeing as my mom refuses to admit somethings wrong with me.