ItsAHardWorld
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It's been 3-4 weeks now, haven't been going to sleep until 4-5am and then not waking up until 12-1pm, But sometimes I can go for 1-2 days without sleep. I feel so angry! everytime I sit next to someone who's eating/breathing or anything, I get so flipping angry it's unreal! I clean the kitchen at 2am listening to my music and singing and dancing, it's great. My self confidence is amazing! and I just feel the need to have money ALL the time, but then I blow it on stupid things. I like to make people happy, even something stupid like buying a bar of chocolate for my dad it makes me happy. I engage in risky behaviour etc - unproctected sex. at night I always feel there is someone following me around into different rooms, and i find myself constantly looking at the door to see if someone is there, I even find myself thinking about sex more often!! Which is weird.
Then comes the down. it hits me in the face like a brick. I can't be bothered to do anything whatsoever, just sit on the sofa watching TV, with no motivation. Feeling like a blank canvas with no emotion, just wanting everyone to leave me alone. Abusing my personal hygiene, thoughts about suicide (I'm not going to harm myself). I just feel down and out really.
Then comes the down. it hits me in the face like a brick. I can't be bothered to do anything whatsoever, just sit on the sofa watching TV, with no motivation. Feeling like a blank canvas with no emotion, just wanting everyone to leave me alone. Abusing my personal hygiene, thoughts about suicide (I'm not going to harm myself). I just feel down and out really.