I'm kind of afraid of being intimate with a guy. I don't know why, but when I really like a guy, I become extremely self-conscious. I feel like he'll see every one of my flaws. I just become hyper-aware of my skin, my face, my body, everything. I don't know why I have this. I just can't really relax and let myself go. Also I don't really handle the emotional intensity very well. I just want to hide my face, and run away, whereas other people would revel in it. To me it just becomes too much. I've had some messed up things happen to me when I was young, so I don't know if it's because of this.