Actually, my life sucks even more, but I'm back to normal!

J

"JUST SMILE"

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-Born in 1982 in a nameless town and a nameless hospital (not in the USA).
-Abandoned by my parents at age of 4. My mom ran away with some guy and my dad with some women.
-Lived with my grandparents who hated me for 7 years because I am the reflection of that man they hated. Physical abuse was a daily practice.
-Moved to my uncles house at age of 12 for one year. That was the best time of my life. My cousin was still 6 and we play video games all the time. My uncle was nice.
-Nightmare is back again: I am back with my grandparents.
-School sucks. My teachers physcially and emotionally abuse every student especially me because I don't have parents to "protect" me.
-Age 14: Apartment was taken away by the government. We all got kicked out and had to move to an even more remote location with a biochemical factory next to our windows.
-Age 14: Lived at that place for 8 month and finally, a guy whom I never knew showed up and told me "I'm your dad, come with me to America or stay, it's your choice."
-Of course, all the people I knew dreamed to go to the USA. So I didn't have to think.
-Age 15: Arrived at USA and only to realize that my dad and step mom are workaholics and they are never home.
-My step mom's sister, who is a real bitch, abused me emotionally everyday (since physical abuse is illegal in the USA, she doesn't dare to do that).
-My dad, whom I trusted, actually favored them more than me. He's a coward and a slave to my step mom and her sister. So you can see a slave's son is a WHAT?
-Attended High school, practically hated everything. Aggressive to all the teachers and students because everyone hated me first (due to my inability to dress "cool"). Wished that there could be an earth quake and destroy the school. Almost got expelled for failing every class. Sexually harassed the Chemistry teacher (although I just asked her out and told her she was hot, no harassment at all).
-Tried to hack the school but was caught and arrested but dismissed since I was a minor.
-Had to leave my parents' home at age 17 due to the fact that my dad was diagnosed to be mentally insane (aggression) and is still on medication.
-Went to community college and worked part time -- Well hated by my fellow employees because I was too good at sales. No $$$ to buy a car, so I rode my bike to school everyday.
-Currently working my ass off because I want to show my parents that I can do BETTER without them.
 
Don't become a workaholic "just to show them". Try to enjoy yourself a little now and then. Meet some like minded people and blow off steam with them. Be glad you're not living "back then."
 
Ain't life a bitch?

If your tale is too be believed, which considering your posts I am yet undecided, however, I will give you the benefit of doubt and roll with it.

Good news---you've done been to the wars, kiddo. You survived. Now you know what you do NOT want to be, and you will have to work very hard at that if you have your own children.

Bad news--you will carry that bullshit like a fucking rock in your stomach for the rest of your life. Nothing anyone can say or do will ever take that away.

Advice: You are an adult now, and your future is yours to make. Don't waste it on stupid shit. Hatred will burn you up fast, it will destroy anything you touch if you let it. Teach yourself not to hate the wrong things for the wrong reasons. Teach yourself to hate the right things, like abuse.
 
I think we can all make a giant list about why our life sucks, because we're just a fucked up group of people. But at least you're working hard and trying to make better for yourself.
 
Do one thing and continue to post things like your math problems etc. You saw the replies it got. At least, you'll have something to do instead of becoming depressed.
 
Haha, You know I have posted some math problems. You must be here a lot. I am always depressed, and probably will stay depressed until I find a good reason not too. Doctors can't help because I got licensed psychologist here and they can't even answer my questions unless they put me on Medication but they think I am not at that "level" that requires medication yet.

Here's something for all of you to pounder; now don't hate me for saying that please: "If ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise."

College expose you to a world of intellectuals and expand your view of the world and things that can be done with the intelligence of men. However, is that really what we all want? I remember when I was little, I had no desire to own a house, own a car, or even just a complete meal with good food and veggies. I was happier back then with my friends on the soccer field even though we literally had "nothing." Now we care about clothings, TV sets, cars, and all sorts of junks that we might never use.

Looking all all my colleagues graduated last year. They work at some shitty jobs that pays $52,000 a year and work their ass off! Bosses always expect you to work way more than you are paid. This is not a much at all consider the hyper-inflation of land price here at California. Also, greed never ends. When your eyes lay on the tangible goods you desire, envy comes to play and consumes your soul, taking every penny away from you until you are broke. Yet, those things you buy; the utility you gain from it fades away as time passes and you desire other new things to come. It's an endless cycle of desire and despair.

Maybe you'll fall in love with a woman one day and get married. However, once she find experience even better satisfaction (richer guy?), chances are you are going to have problems. No offense to the fellow women on this site; certainly not all women are like that. Or maybe you'll have problems simply because of workload, stress, no time to get together, children...etc. It all started with one thing: the endless cycle of desire and despair. You want everything others have, and you want things others don't have to show your power and your status. I am one of those people, but I derive little joy or pleasure from that. Yet, I am obligated to do that so that my parents don't say, "look at you loser; you cant' even make as much as we do."

But is there really any point to make more money by sacrificing all your time? Working more than 45 hours is just not my thing. However, most jobs do require at least 50 hrs of working otherwise you'd never get a promotion and in case of a mass layoff, you are the first to go.
 
I worked full time while raising my three kids and attending college full time. I got about 4 hours of sleep for two years. Seriously, I don't have any sympathy. You had a shot at making your life better and you dropped out because you felt like other people were smarter than you? I mean come on, you are better than that. Stronger than that if your original post is true.

I'd kill to make 52 g's a year. Right now I am killing myself to make 20 g's a year.
 
I am not dropping out. I will graduate this June. Being smart is not the issue here. I am always ostracized because of my hobbies (supernatural, quantum mechanics, philosophy, Japaneses animation) because they are "uncool." I am almost never participate in any parties because I simply don't enjoy it. I could've use my time for better purpose such as tutoring this kid math at Santa Monica and earn $25 an hour or to sell my anime products online and earn profit.

Yet there are these fellow classmates of mine who drives BMW Z8 and will NEVER have to worry about their life because:
1. They are good looking.
2. They have rich parents who own a PALACE in Malibu.
3. Good looking girls love them.
4. They are stupid; barely passing the classes and yet they are popular.

Given they didn't earn any of those themselves (practically, everything came from their parents, even the good-looking part!), they'll still have a better life than me for all eternity. I probably have to work my ass off only to receive a divorce document from my future wife, or to receive comments from my kids such as "you are a fucking idiot and you don't know anything!"

Yeah yeah, I know this is an on going debate that will never have an answer. Life is tough and is never fair. Karl Marx tried to create a "perfect" system, yet he only brought disaster to the world. Maybe I'll never find an answer.

PS, $52,000 sounds a lot but in LA it is really not. Come on, check the price of a house. You can't afford even in the most remote locations here if you make $52,000. Dustinzgirl, You are a woman, why don't you study to be a nurse. Come on, nurses make $100k easy and it's not hard. I am a guy so I can't. Male nurses really get ridiculed here so there's no way I'll fall for that.
 
I went to nursing school for a year. I hated it and switched to business administration. I don't like sick people. Its gross. Besides, not all girls are good at nursing, so that is kind of a generalization. I'm much better at marketing theories, math, and economic theory. Nobody pukes on you. 52 g's a year is a freaking LOT where I live. Average income for my county is 30 g's per year.

And nursing is actually very hard. You have to know anatomy, medications, legal shit, and so forth.
 
I know it sounds hard. But try to look on the bright side of life.
nothing will EVER be good if you always loath in "omg my life sucks, I hate
my life so much, everyone has it so much better than me, I hate my life"

that is life. there will always be brats that are stupid, rich, spoiled to the last
penny. I don't have alot of money, but money isnt everything.

I've had a shitty life, I went through the "I hate my life" but I got
pass it and didnt stay in that situation to let it slowly consume me so I would
sooner or later kill myself and some rich brats.


-if youre good at anime, why dontya try to sell it to big companies?
-philosophy is an interesting subject, you will always win those brats in talking, because they are simply stupid.
-do not care what others think. learn to listen to yourself not outside voices..

I know you won't believe me but still... :hug2:
 
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