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Ali D
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...bitter womans rant I guess? So my husband and I have been TTC for a while now, and nothing. So I was at my god daughters house last week and she 4 months. Then our friends with an 18 month old and 1 month old twins come over, and the mother of my god daughter just started ranting and raving about how great it is to be a mother and how she wants so much more and blah blah blah. It was hard for me to be ina room with 4 babies and none were mine, so my husband and I left. I started bawling as soon as we left, it was just too hard. The next day they asked why we left so suddenly, and I told her how it hurt that there were that many babies and none were mine and she chuckled...I was dumbfounded, then I said how I cried as soon as we left and she payed no attention to my comment like I didn't even say it. This hurt so much, I'm jus so fed up with moms... I'm just so bitter. I live in utah which makes it worse because every woman when we go out has a baby, no exaggeration. I've come to the point where I don't want anything to do with children, babies, anything, it just hurts so much.I don't know how some of you women trying for years and years do it. We can't adopt because of some stupid things I did when I was younger, but I'd more than love to give a child a home. To stop from crying I just get mean about the whole situation...how do you guys keep going?
I truly do enjoy being a newlywed, and the fact that we can afford to decorate our home how we want and we can go out to dinner at 9pm, and of course get it on when we want to. It feels like I get dicluded from doing thing because I'm not a mom and I guess I don't need a break from the daily. I love my god daughter so so so much, but when we hang out all her mom can talk about it babies and pregnancy. I've charted my ovualtion and we have sex at least every day, we're under 25 years old, non smokers, non drinkers. I have a moral issue with fertility drugs, I still don't know if I'd be willing to take them. You guys really have made me feel better tho, because my husband doesn't fully understand and ofcourse its obvious my "friends" don't either.
I truly do enjoy being a newlywed, and the fact that we can afford to decorate our home how we want and we can go out to dinner at 9pm, and of course get it on when we want to. It feels like I get dicluded from doing thing because I'm not a mom and I guess I don't need a break from the daily. I love my god daughter so so so much, but when we hang out all her mom can talk about it babies and pregnancy. I've charted my ovualtion and we have sex at least every day, we're under 25 years old, non smokers, non drinkers. I have a moral issue with fertility drugs, I still don't know if I'd be willing to take them. You guys really have made me feel better tho, because my husband doesn't fully understand and ofcourse its obvious my "friends" don't either.