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neener33
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This story is probably not unfamiliar to those of you here. And to all of you who are here...thank you! I have searched and searched for people who were sharing my "problem" for almost a year, and here you all are! I am grateful that we can come together and share our stories.
My anxiety began in Noveraber of 2009, right before Thanksgiving. I woke in the middle of the night feeling as though I was going to have a heart attack! My heart was pounding and racing, my muscles were all as hard as a rock and I was beginning to hyperventalate. I immediately called 911, only to realize 1/2 hour later that I was having a panic attack! Now, years earlier I had suffered from these (when I was 18), but they eventually went away and I never gave them another thought. This time however, it is different. It all began that night and everyday after I had like three full blown attacks a day! I was in Grad school full time, working with Autistic children full time and taking care of my own two beautiful kiddos. Not to mention all the housework and bills on my own. FOr months I went through this without contacting a doctor, finally in January I went to a doctor. They tried to perscribe me numerous anti-depressants, valume and everything else. Finally in late February I met with another doctor in the same practice and he gave me adivan. I LOVE adavan because I can take it only when I need it. In March I began my student teaching and we went down to one income. While teaching, I suffered from irruglar heartbeats, bouts of anxiety and what I can only describe as a near constant feeling of excitability (like you are just about to take the first drop on a roller coaster). It was horrible!!! Finally, I changed my diet, 8 glasses of water a day, herbal tea at night, hot baths, calming music and I learned to let go of many things that I was used to having a tight reign. Once I began to let loose and have a "my cup is 1/2 full attitude, I found that this worked, although only a little. Deep breathing and meditation helped, exercise and my Rosary =} I took up reading, drawing and doing puzzles. I also found a man by the name of charles linden (you all must try him, his program is AMAZING!!!!) Anyway, in July my daytime attacks stopped for the most part and I began to suffer from them at night. For two months I only woke up twice a week with a racing heart. Now I wake up every night exactally 1 to 2 hours after I initially fall asleep with a racing heart. I try the cold water method, reading, doing meaningless research on the computer and watching TV. After an hour or two I can fall back asleep and stay sleeping for the rest of the night. Right around my menstral cycle I have found that my daytime anxiety returns, but not nearly as bad as it once was. I have had an EKG and other heart tests done, nothing. I have had bloodwork, nothing. I am so confused as to why I am having anxiety only 1 1/2 hours after I fall asleep?! Is there a clock in my body telling me that this is the time to wake up with a racing heart because it has happened for so long? I have tried to create new neuro pathways, but nothing has worked.
My anxiety began in Noveraber of 2009, right before Thanksgiving. I woke in the middle of the night feeling as though I was going to have a heart attack! My heart was pounding and racing, my muscles were all as hard as a rock and I was beginning to hyperventalate. I immediately called 911, only to realize 1/2 hour later that I was having a panic attack! Now, years earlier I had suffered from these (when I was 18), but they eventually went away and I never gave them another thought. This time however, it is different. It all began that night and everyday after I had like three full blown attacks a day! I was in Grad school full time, working with Autistic children full time and taking care of my own two beautiful kiddos. Not to mention all the housework and bills on my own. FOr months I went through this without contacting a doctor, finally in January I went to a doctor. They tried to perscribe me numerous anti-depressants, valume and everything else. Finally in late February I met with another doctor in the same practice and he gave me adivan. I LOVE adavan because I can take it only when I need it. In March I began my student teaching and we went down to one income. While teaching, I suffered from irruglar heartbeats, bouts of anxiety and what I can only describe as a near constant feeling of excitability (like you are just about to take the first drop on a roller coaster). It was horrible!!! Finally, I changed my diet, 8 glasses of water a day, herbal tea at night, hot baths, calming music and I learned to let go of many things that I was used to having a tight reign. Once I began to let loose and have a "my cup is 1/2 full attitude, I found that this worked, although only a little. Deep breathing and meditation helped, exercise and my Rosary =} I took up reading, drawing and doing puzzles. I also found a man by the name of charles linden (you all must try him, his program is AMAZING!!!!) Anyway, in July my daytime attacks stopped for the most part and I began to suffer from them at night. For two months I only woke up twice a week with a racing heart. Now I wake up every night exactally 1 to 2 hours after I initially fall asleep with a racing heart. I try the cold water method, reading, doing meaningless research on the computer and watching TV. After an hour or two I can fall back asleep and stay sleeping for the rest of the night. Right around my menstral cycle I have found that my daytime anxiety returns, but not nearly as bad as it once was. I have had an EKG and other heart tests done, nothing. I have had bloodwork, nothing. I am so confused as to why I am having anxiety only 1 1/2 hours after I fall asleep?! Is there a clock in my body telling me that this is the time to wake up with a racing heart because it has happened for so long? I have tried to create new neuro pathways, but nothing has worked.